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Friday, January 28, 2011

Memorable birthday .

Happy birthday to myself ! Hahas.. I just turned 14 . :D Thank you for those who wished me a happy birthday , but special thanks to Xin Ya , Yan Yi , Agnes , Si Yu and Mdm Seow ! ♥ (: OMG , today ate 2 cakes and received some gifts ! Wow . I love my 14th birthday . A memorable one . It's just that... someone never wish me . :( Actually there were 2 , but HE wished me a belated birthday at 1:12 am . I thought he won't wish me.. although i was hoping the whole day . So.. i was quite surprised when he sent me a personal message in fb . Kinda chatted... and wei lun di siao me with that . -.- But.. i realized something through this . That.. i still have feelings for him , I still have . I thought i fall for another guy alr.. but it wasn't really true . I don't know ! It's so confusing.. I really thought that i got over him.. got over everything we shared . I even deleted some of his messages . But everything came back again.. and i realized that for these 2 months (dec-jan), i'm living in "false-life" . But i won't fret over it . I'll just let things be . I'm happy that actually.. he remembered my birthday . :)

What is the secret to life?

Monday, January 17, 2011

Well...

Happy birthday , Chun Hui ! Another birthday boy . Lols . Actually lots of things happened today , but vaguely . And i blocked some of them at the back of my head . I managed to avoid things that i wanted to avoid . That person was on the bus this morning . I saw . But i turned away and pretended as if i never see him . When i was standing beside him in the bus , i still did not look at him . After school , i saw him in the canteen . He turned to me but i turned away . Cool , wasn't it ? Oh well , what i wanted to say is : avoiding is a good start to get over someone/something (don't be mistaken , it's not the same person as that guy in last year) . It is effective . At least.. i can control my urge and so it's effective for me . Sometimes i don't understand why i did things like this , but i know i don't deserve anyone . Anyway , i'm trying my best to not get a boyfriend this year . Probably not so soon . (:

Okay , looks like i spoke too much . HAHA . Hey hey , i realized that the teachers who taught my class this year are so sucky . No offense though . My form teacher (also my maths teacher) doesn't really know how to teach . Seriously , i prefer Mdm Liza a lot to her . I just hope i will still like maths . My geog teacher , i can tell you.. out of 4 periods of lessons (2 days , 2 periods each) , i only managed to listen to 1 and 1/2 of the periods of his teaching . Nobody knows what he's talking about . OHMYGOSH! -.- Hope i can still pass my geog exam . Pray ! Lols . And .. MY PE TEACHER ! Can die mans ! I wonder if he's an alien without a heart/soul or is he really a human . Doesn't he care for his students ? Can't he stop being so impatient ? I'm not trying to compare him with Mr Loh because different teachers have different teaching styles . But they have a HEART right ? For goodness sake ! Oh well , if i were to compare the both of them , Mr Loh is SO much better . (Anyway, something cropped up , but i don't want to say) . Ergh.. teachers are enough to kill us ! Other than the teachers , the rest are still quite okay , except for him and kor . Haiz.. OH NO , i'm not going to emo about those stuffs again . Hahas.. good night ! ;)

What is the secret to life?

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Happy Birthday .

@Tony : I wanted to give you a video made by me as a birthday present . But.. time ran out and.. i don't think you deserve anything like that . You deserve a better one . That video can't compare with what your friends had given you today . I thought i could make you happy , but i seemed to be wrong . I felt so bad.. cos i didn't manage to give you anything for your birthday and i couldn't celebrate it with you .

What is the secret to life?

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Everything is so blur .

There's a lot of things i can't handle . Many , many things . Enough is enough ! Now HE is giving me a problem . He's change . Totally . He won't talk to me about anything . We're not close like we used to be . Why is it so ? Must it be such a big difference ? I may not know what he's feeling , but he don't have to do that to me ! He's like venting anger on me . I hate that . I meant good for him , not lecturing him . I'm getting him back on the right track . He just doesn't get it . I knew it long ago .. that 2011 won't be that good , and now it proves that i'm right . I don't feel like talking to him right now , because i know we will end up quarreling if i continue to say what i wanted to say .

Why must it be like this ? I know you had stop liking me , but we're still brother and sister , am i wrong ? I care for you , but you don't know . I'm trying to help you , but you don't know . I'm tired of handling things like this . I had it last year , i don't want it to happen again this year ! Although it's of different person ! I rack my brain to think how i can get a birthday present for you , how can i celebrate your birthday even if it's going to be a belated birthday . I don't want you to think that no one appreciates you , because i do . Actually i alr have a plan in mind , however , you're giving me crap now . Maybe i'm being petty or whatsoever . But i meant well .

What is the secret to life?

Friday, January 14, 2011

Feel the right way .

It happened on a Friday . But not today , it's last Friday . Something is there . But , i'm not bothering about it , i'm not caring . Because i don't deserve it . Anyway , i was hoping for the same thing to happen today , but it did not and i told myself that i should not expect anything . No more....

What should i say about tony kor ? That i first time see him emo ? That deep inside him , there were pain , confusion and something more ? Now i know that i do not understand him . However , i care for him . I hope he knows . I don't want him to feel what everyone is afraid of feeling . I hope he can feel that even if there is no one who understands him , there is someone who cares for him and make sure he exists . (:

What is the secret to life?

Saturday, January 01, 2011

New Year.

New Year Eve had gone and now is really a NEW YEAR. I don't know what to say, actually. Just hope all of you have a happy and prosperous year ahead. How about that << ? Not too bad right? Haha. School will be reopening in 2 days' time. 2010 had past in a blink of an eye. How fast. I miss my sec 1 life very much. If only people can forever stay young and have the good memories of their childhood. But i can't imagine how it will be to have juniors next year! I will be becoming a SENIOR alr, must have some di di and mei mei. LOL.

I'm happy today. I hope so are you all. ;)

What is the secret to life?