Without elaboration, i just wanted to say something. Now, do you know which word can actually cover up everything? It's : never mind. I'm using that word... every time i felt angry or hurt. Because, i can cover up my feelings using that word, so as to not hurt back others and further hurt myself. Things are going from bad to worst, worst to...... hopeless. Things eventually become hopeless although i wish they could turn out to be pleasant ones. Even though i'm tired of trying... this time round i really have to give it all.

>The person who wants to avoid me: Yes, i wanted to become friends like how we were in the past. I wanted to make things different. I wanted to change your perspective of me. But your : it makes me feel that you're not worthy , really sucks. Yes, i cannot say anything and i did want to. I promised that i wouldn't say you're blunt again. At the same time, i promised myself to become a better person that can really "suits as your friend". For the sake of this friendship, i've done so much. How about you? You know that the previous situation is your fault, so you wanted to avoid me. Do you know that it's because of your emoing face that made me feel so guilty? So now, you chose to avoid ME. Well, so.be.it. I'm really tired of trying, when i have no idea how to try. But in order to keep this friendship, i'm willing to.... hurt myself again. Today.. even those words you say.. pricked me. This is the first time, i did not want to say anything about it. Now i really wonder.... what's friendship.
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