Such an awful day!! Last night slept less than 5 hours. Cos got... gastric. And it's really damn pain. Put twice oilment and ate medicine. Haiz, pain... up till now, it still hurts a lot. :(
Feel really unwell and sleepy during lessons. But i'm trying to bear with the pain. I didn't know why, but i don't moan at home. Maybe there's no one who wants to hear me moan. HAHA. Anyway, today's lessons are kinda boring. I would make a quick one here, cos i wants to study for science CT. Went hmt, and felt damn angry. I tried to calm down, and i did it. Not much anger was shown. Whatever, don't talk about that. Then we had a compo test. Not sure if i'll get good marks! Came back home... and fb. Saw zhong zhe's comment and everything. Then we chatted. Not really chatted. I felt worst after he told me some stupid stuffs. And that feeling is the one i got when i chatted with him on msn and he said that he doesn't trust me. We started off with the stupid topic... which i doesn't want to say.

Zhong zhe : ... you're not really a people person.

Me : What you talking about?

Zhong zhe : You.are really.not a people kind of person. Meaning, you don't communicate with people welly.

Me : Not i don't. Is they don't.

Zhong zhe : Haiz... stop thinking what i say is wrong.

Me : Oh okay.. fine, whatever you say is right, k?

Me : Can you seriously, for once.. not say things that can either hurt or anger people? ....

Zhong zhe : -.- If you want stubbon i want help also cannot help.

Me : I'm not being stubborn.

Zhong zhe : You say i hurt people?

Me : You go and see all you typed above.. almost all are negative things about me. *(i did not put)

Zhong zhe : You know? I am really sad that you don't understand and i really am angry right now. But, instead... i am slowly talking to you.

Me : I understand. But you're very blunt.

Zhong zhe : I try help you, you say i only say your bad things... and I am not really blunt. If you think i am then its your prob. If i am blunt you know what i will say stright in your face?

Me : Fine, thanks for your helping.

Zhong zhe : Lets not get there. You know what? You dont really understand people which is why i say you are not really a people person. If you think i said something BLUNT again, sorry.

Me : Eventually, i feel worst. Like that time we're on msn. The same feeling's back. So, i'm sorry i've ruined your night again. And so sorry that i even ruin MY night. Thanks for your helping and all.

Zhong zhe : I AM JUST STATING THE FACTS. TRY CHANGING THE RETARD BAD POINTS OF YOURSELF LA! I BLUNT? FINE LA. YOU GO ASK MY FRIENDS.

Me : I'm sorry for saying that!

Zhong zhe : Hais...

Me : Can? SORRY.

Zhong zhe : I dont need you say sorry la. You try changing yourself. It helps sometimes + i am sorry for being BLUNT.

You see how had the conversation went? I really tried my damn very best to keep my tears, REALLY. But i AM seriously being weak. AGAIN. But maybe.. maybe he was right all the while. Maybe the problem lies with me. Because he said the same thing too, that we cannot communicate well. 2 people said that to me... you look how serious the problem is? I alr got no idea how to speak to zhong zhe after that issue... and today... make it all worst. Guess we won't be able to get back like friends, like how we used to be.