Today like... don't feel like blogging but still force myself to. Went up and down the stairs with lixin this morning. Cos she waiting for the bookshop to open but... it hadn't. -.-
So then... when i saw jj, ERHEM, i ran away. Cos need to say HI when i see him.. then................. i don't want. After school ends, went staff room give mdm tang her project works. Saw.... him. He saw me. If i were to sms him, he'll ask: "WHY are you avoiding me?" Cos i didn't say hello or anything when i see him. IDK why, but don't dare to. Let's just forget about that part, will we? Then during lunch time, saw jj again. He walking towards my direction but not towards me though, and afraid he'll see me and i have to say HI, i walked (almost ran) 1 whole big round around the canteen and at last, back to my table. Hahaha... hilarious sia. :DD
After lunch, got ict. Then went home with lixin. Forgot what we talked about liao. Haiz... this strange _____, why is it there again? I'm not too sure about that... and i don't think i want to be sure about it. It'll....... hurt. 2 of them. I DON'T WANT. Well... i should wait... and wait... but maybe it's not like how i thought it is. Nvm....... i should be patient and wait till everything's over. That'll be fair to 3 of us, i guess?? I'm sorry if anyone feels hurt after reading this post. Is there any? You? Or you?? Nvm.... i'll keep it to myself even if i'm right.
First: Don't want to feel guilty.
Second: Don't want to betray.
Third: Don't want to hurt anyone.
Fourth: Everything will eventually be ok and back to normal. I hope so.
Fifth: I'm......... sorry.