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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Teacher's Day!

OMG, today teacher's day celebration worh. (:
Anyway, A HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL TEACHERS/PRINCIPALS!
Haha, lols. Celebration was very nice. Surprisingly. Need to thanks those performers and... councilors. First performance is what? Oh, band! Diao... i told lixin that the electric guitar is lucas de... and i think i'm right. I 85% confirm. (:
Second is.. dance by 3 malay guys. That's really awesome! One of my favourite performance today. (Y)
Ok, the performances are just too fabulous! I love the... 3e1's performance. Cool and creative. And, jasper sang it damn well. Also, the... LUCIFER dance! Hahaha, that one... i speechless. (:
Everything is better than yesterday de rehearsal. Haha, cool. At around 10 15, went down for recess. Omg, the recess period is...... GOD DAMN! The story goes like this: I was smsing andy. He was sitting with jj and was finding me. He then saw and turned to me. JJ followed his gaze and found me! WHAT THE HECK?! Lols, and i very stupid, i make it even more obvious. When i saw him turn to me, i immediately turned away. This makes him confirm that i'm....... huiling. ==
Lixin somemore told me he and andy laughed like mad. Zzt.. after that, chatted with lixin and jia wen. Was looking at jia wen and... jj pop out from no where and show his face in front of me. I guess... he wants to see me more clearly. AND THAT'S HOW HE SCARE THE HELL OUTTA ME!!!!!!! -.-
And he went there laughing like... non stop! OH MY GOSH! Ergh. And, lixin was laughing with them! Wth... they gang up one or what?! O.O
After recess, went to parade square for some activities. Or shall i call it... competitions with the 1e2? :)
Anyway, 1e1 V.S 1e2 and the lucky winner is..................................................... 1e1!! Yay, *claps claps! (Y) :D
Finish then dismiss le. Haha, went back to tkps. Met a lot of friends like: Vivian (i hope you can recognize me now. :D), Ivan, Yong Hao, Hui Ting, Estee, Jamie, Regine, Jin Rui, sheree and ALL. Zzt, was finding 1st kor then idk where he is. :(
Wish teachers happy teacher's day and went to visit them in the staff room. Haha... zhang lao shi is still as funny and joke as ever. Love her really lots. After seeing the concert, went back home with lixin and her sister at about... 2 37. HAHA, that's how the day ends, probably? ^.*
Oh, now was chatting with jin fang and she damn... LOL. -.-
I purposely go and put her in jj's conversation. (Y)
But he seems to be really quiet. I think he's busy. Haha, so sorry just now disturbed him. Oh ya, just now was on youtube and found some nice piano covers:

Omg, my favourite song! (:
Told 1st kor to help me find the score and i want to play.

Haha, this also! Nice!~

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I've got lots to blog. Edited ones, k?

Yesterday night:

Around... 10 30-11pm, quarreled with parents. Haiz, really... this is the first year or time that i felt so pressurized. By THEM. Cos tomorrow i got piano exam and they wanted to care everything. I really know what i'm doing, but they think i don't, like KID still. And what i mind is that they don't understand how i felt. And what i'm thinking. I hate parents who don't understand their children. And now... maybe i can really feel how stress he is. The stress given by his parents (maybe is this issue, idk?), the exams.... friends... everything. I still don't quite get it though... but at least some of them. When sleeping, really wish that he would say something..... == END!

Today:

OMG, piano exam sia!! Yeah, over liao lurhs. :D
Quite nervous... and i think i didn't do very well, cos i don't even know what the examiner is talking about? LOLS. Really hope i got distinction. It can only allow 20 points to be deducted sia. Let's PRAY. REAL HARD. >.<
Diao, andy promised me if i got distinction for piano then he buy me sweets. But i doubt i'll receive the gift from him. LOL, did i say i've got a lot to blog about? Diao... i shouldn't brag. -.-
Ok, came back from heartland mall then went for cca. I thought my friend still doing some...... work? But he didn't. Anyway, saw him lurh. But idk whether he saw me. Nvm, i actually pretended i didn't see him. Weird kid I AM. During cca, can't focus. Keep looking at the hall where people were doing their teacher's day rehearsal. No offense, but.... not really that well done. Actually, not bad liao lurh. Cos time too less for you guys to prepare. Hmm... if anyone of you saw this, maybe you guys want to change somethings or what, idk. For....... 3e1's performance: I suggest you guys to not sing together using like... 5 mikes? I meant... maybe 3 to 1 mike... then you guys take turn. Sometimes some of you sing, then sometimes the other group of 3s to 4s sing. Not because of the mike's problem. It's just the...... volume of all of you.
People who dance 'LUCIFER': Maybe... be more natural? And... if want to have girls inside, i suggest put some... more active in dance ones inside. So that the dance won't be like... jelly beans, but firmer. And... steadier.
ANYWAY, ALL, PLEASE JY! (:
Fine, that jj arh.... seriously is retarded! I gave him so many clues liao, he like....... aiya, i'm speechless for him. -.-
And, battery flat in school. TWICE like this. ==
Soon, went home... and andy scared me. From behind. He stood there like... ??!! HAHA.... then we boarded the bus and THERE WE GO, HOME!~ :D
Sian, now feel like sleeping liao, BYEBYE.

Btw, real thanks to: Andy , Lixin , Angeline , Audrey , Jia wen and all those who wish me goodluck for my piano exam. (:

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Saturday, August 28, 2010

Stupid sickness

Sian, today never go lixin's house. She going out with charmin for the concert. Asked someone something then he like being so sarcastic sia. WTH! ==
Morning.. went for piano lesson. Then bought some things jiu come back liao. Today is also tired. Slept on bus, twice. And got headache. Came back home, watched tv for a while then go practise piano liao. Practise like 2h then suddenly feel so giddy. Went to bad and half slept. Woke up, stomache. What the hell?! Dinner, ate very less. OMG. I hate that --> every time exam (be it piano or school) coming then i sick de. Then dad come crap, say what, "You must know how arrange your time mah! Don't do other work, just go practise piano lurh! Play comp, your eyes pain, your brain pain, of course sick lurh." IDIOT! I FBING, NOT PLAY COMP, PLEASE. AND IT'S NONE OF COMP'S BUSINESS LURH. DAMN PISSED WITH HIM SIA. EVERY TIME I SICK, HE WILL COMMENT SOME IDIOT STUFFS. NOW MY MOM KANNA INFLUENCED BY HIM. SCREAM AT ME AND SAY WHAT, "You tomorrow better don't on comp liao. If not, you try me! Tomorrow, what you can do is, practise piano, rest, practise piano, rest................." ERGH. EXAM.... THEY PRESSURING ME INSTEAD OF ENCOURAGING ME SIA. EVERY TIME LIKE THAT, WITHOUT FAIL. I HATE TALKING TO THEM. HATE!

Now, i got to end here. Today i never even on comp much, please. My bro need use this comp, please. Haiz, nvm... no matter what i say, they're still being arrogant. I don't give a damn to THEM. -.-

What is the secret to life?

Friday, August 27, 2010

Lixin, love ya!

FRIDAY! I hate a lot. LOL. Such a short and quick day. Science was the first lesson. Omg.. chapter D4 or D5 i use 4 pages for notes. Haha, really a lot important points. Second was EL, gone through compre questions. Diao, i got quite a lot wrong. Maths, mdm liza never come! Aww... how is she now? Miss her. Hahaha. Btw, teacher's day coming SOON. Very soon. Got a lot favourite teacher sia. Mdm liza, mr loh, mdm tang, mr asraf, ms chin, ms lim............. haha. Need prepare so many cards. I don't know why sia, but every friday i will have this stupid weird feeling that can make me cry. But didn't cry lurh, duh. After school, went home with lixin. Don't feel like being home so early, so we went mac for some drink and ice cream. Then went to lixin's mom's shop. Haha, nice. Next time i go, FOC ah, lixin. LOL. :D
Walked slowly, chatting, dragging time, whatever. Haha! We then went to the stationary shop beside mac for some "shopping". LOL. In the end, bought somethings. SHHH!! Cannot say here. Haha, kinda confidential. (:
After that, told lixin a whole big thing. Hahaha... she said, "OMG, huiling, i'm so proud of you. (: "
Haha, thank you oh. ^.^
Well, that's it, i bet. FULLSTOP here.<--

OMG, i'm stucked. In between those 2. I don't know ehs..........

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Thursday, August 26, 2010

You calling me an idiot?! (:

Morning, as usual. But then, ___ came in class, then lixin was like, "They/HE purposely one lurh, can bet. Haha, come in to see you de lorh." Diao? Random. In parade square, saw 1st kor and Jass play bb. SO CUTE! Haha... but 1st kor airball-ed. He don't even remember sia. Lol. Lessons were still usual... like some routine like that. Don't like today sia. I mean.. every thursday and friday.
Thur: D&t and music is LAME. Omg, i don't like mans....
Fri: School end so early! DAMMIT! -.-
Nvm, nvm... i was smsing in class sia. Haha.. alot messages. :)
Then, went for hmt, and got back ca paper. Can die. LOL.. total only improve by 1 mark. ERGH?! I sibei lan sia... highest in our class is 93/120 = 77.5/100. PRO. (:
I really need jiayou liao. >.<
Btw, told jin fang and jamiah about the 'exposed' thing and they laughed like what?! Haha. It IS funny..... and silly. Today was really tired. Slept in bus when on the way to NASS. Then come back school, want sleep again. Idk why so tired. Never practise piano but were chatting in msn and planning for guzheng camp. Chatted with andy, tony... and... jj <-- ==
Told tony something. (Y) But i really hope he won't be too hopeful sia.. haiz, don't want hurt him. :(
OMG, THEN I SAW THIS STUPID VIDEO THAT SCARE THE HELL OUTTA ME. I GOT SO AFRAID THAT I NEARLY CRY SIA. SOMEMORE, ANDY GAVE ME ANOTHER LINK.. TIC TAC TOE. THEN THE IMAGE... AWW... UNGLAM!!!! SCREWED LIKE WHAT! OMGOMGOMG.... THAT ONE, I DIDN'T SCREAM OR ANYTHING, BUT AFTER LIKE... 3 SECONDS, I COVER MY FACE WITH MY HANDS LIAO!!! SCARY... I HOPE I DON'T GET A NIGHTMARE TONIGHT. -.-ll
Haha, then tony gave me another link... not that scary... cos i saw the image before. ~.~
After he offline, the remaining 3 of us chatted. JJ keep scolding me sia, andy can be witness lorh. Zzt.. -.-
He somemore keep arguing say he don't like ___ ___, like who believe sia? Haha.... so obvious?! LOL. And... i told him that yesterday he was just 1 arm length away from me but didn't recognize me. He crap so much and the conclusion he gave me is: "I think i really c*** eye sia." LOL?! O.O
Haiz... my battery like.. left 25%, so i offline first. Really damn tired liao. Energy is drained. (N)
Now, i gtg le. Sleeping time, without nightmare please. ^.*

What is the secret to life?

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Laughters makes great happiness

I ♥ today morning!! It was so awesome. Laughed alot. Cos andy wanted to meet me... but he usually take 6 50 de 228. Today, he earlier. Before that, wei lun already boarded the bus. Idk if he recognizes me. -.-
Even before andy boarded the bus, i knew it's him liao. He also saw me. Then we... were laughing in the bus? He laugh with wei lun, i laugh with lixin. LOLS... idk lurh, but lixin heard things like "Eh, your phone vibrating arh..........." HAHA... she has sharp ears worh... :D
Idk why lurh, but we 2 groups kept laughing. Lixin heard wei lun speak hokkien as well, IDK?! See! my fb display picture don't even look like me. Even jj, that "noob" also cannot recognize sia. I'm in the canteen, saw him coming, was trying to cover myself. Then, he's like... only 1 arm length away from me also don't know it's me. Really, next time can don't need hide liao. Muahaha. XD
Got cca today... so, stayed back with andrea. She was revising her science and i was BORED TTM. Haha... in the end, did some science as well, but not much. (:
Then, went up at 4pm. LOL, mdm seow then told us we cannot play guzheng cos the other teacher complain about us, disturbing the sec 4s and 5s, taking oral. So, forget it. Instead, we discussed about the camp we having in Dec. COOL SIA! My first camp in bgss! (Y)
So, i gave alot of opinions and suggestions. But some were like..... JOKE ones. Hahaha.. so, decided to help xin ya with the planning. I writing her a plan of everything, through my opinions and all. And if she wants to edit it, she may. Wanted to give her on friday, but really not sure can mah. Cos very complicated. And the confident walk we having seems damn scary sia. It's somemore the 7th month. I was.... thinking of deleting that idea sia... and put as night walk or something that is not too scary. Well, i have no idea. Confused...... O.O
After that, went home liao?! So fast? Aww... it felt like as if school ended so quickly. Sian. That's not great. :(
Fine, is that all? I don't know. Btw, planned to go back tkps on next tue. OMG, Ms Chin and Mr Asraf!! I miss them all... and the other kids in tkps. :DD
Wished to see them soon!~;)

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Tuesday, August 24, 2010

L.O.L.?

Morning: Wan ting said dunno what.. she knows who ___ likes. Whatever, i just don't get what she means and i don't think i need to know. (:
Phew! Got back maths and geog test papers. Maths... 14/15. It's still NO good. Friends got full marks and i got this ?! -.-
Then geog... idk who highest, but 4th kor got 26!! Which is better than me. Haha, gratz! He become very pro liao. Heehee.. After that, went recess... ate spaghetti. Then back to class. Oh, before that, went to toilet. Came out, lixin was like, "Huiling, LOOK. (*she pointed in the boy's toilet direction)" LOL! She really, really damn cute. Then... (OK, bingo! I know his name liao. Next time don't need call him small boy liao. (Y))... so, yes, JASS... said, "OH, ____'s _____ worh." AND! "____, 你的 ___!" Diao? I tell you, i really ran. And lixin burst out laughing. WTH?! They gang up one or what sia? LOLS. And now... i really couldn't remember anything. Zzt... STM. Anyway, chatted with andy and was funny? HAHA... kays, ending here.~(:

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Monday, August 23, 2010

Destroyer...

Today was so NOT great for me. Soon... this 'NOT GREAT' will continues.. but i hope it'll end. First: Kor seems to be avoiding me. Whatever. He NEVER speak anything but i CAN feel. Second: Err.. i'm not suppose to say anything here as how i promised. (Y)
Had LIT and was really engross in ms tan's lesson. Second was maths but mdm liza was absent. Conclusion: never get to go through class test paper. -.-
After that, went for recess and ate mee rebus. Kinda.. delicious. After recess was EL. Got back compre test. Yes, it ISN'T the best. Idk who scored 11/15 <-- highest in our class which really really is like.. WTH? So 烂. ==
During MT lesson, went to comp lab for some mother tongue test survey which i was not included. Walked past 3E2. Guess what? JJ still can't spot me. HAIZ, lousy. Haha.. lols. He said he had tried his very best liao but still can't recognize me. I shall see when he's gonna spot me. HAHAHA... we're actually playing this game, you know. FUN. ;)
Science... was also very engross in doing my notes, didn't see 1st kor past by till lixin told me. Really, today's lesson were awesome. Dismissal... went out of classroom, but because of lixin, i have to HIDE! Or... maybe just sneak out of the classroom or what should i call that? Nvm, nvm... then... (i think that guy's name is.. DESMOND?).. he was like.. "HUILING?!" OMG... i actually ran away from him cos if not, he will start all the "____'s girlfriend" thing again. LOL! But he IS funny. =P
Went to canteen... for lunch. But lixin all the way was.. "AIYO, HUILING... OMG, HUILING." and she repeated that like.. countless times? JOKE sia. And, worst of all... she said she wanna eat RICE POT (a stall in school, btw). Zzt... desmond and all were there! Diao... then lixin pulled me there! Nvm... ate fried rice with lixin. And SHE GO ASK BLESSING THAT GUY'S NAME SIA (that's how i know his name is called DESMOND)! Ohmygod. What had she done? Well, this still isn't the most terrifying one. She somemore go shout his name and i was... startled. He turned (i was like... not me arh). -.-
Second time....she wants to agitate (for fun) me and she called her friend to shout. I blocked and pleaded her friend but in the end she shouted AGAIN. I'm going... MAD. Seriously.. this lixin ar... ERGH! Lol... then we headed for the piano with angeline. I played 2 songs. But 1 song... i forgot halfway (omg, that's my exam piece, NO!!!)! And lixin say.. "Go home must 好好练琴 horh!" Diao. At around 3 20... or earlier, went up to technology room for cca. --skip, skip--
Then, saw someone like... emoing. 好心 ask that person whether he/she emoing, he/she said no and told me to leave him/her alone. Fine then.... i will leave that person alone but then he/she said something which angers + agitated + shocked + sadded me. I really couldn't believe what he/she said.. So... actually he/she HATES me? To that person... we're actually not communicating well AT ALL? Is it really better to be that way you mentioned? To leave you alone? I didn't know that... concerning someone would be so... RIDICULOUS to him/her. Hah, i thanked that person for telling me that we're not on good terms at all. And so... the smsing stops. Now, i'm just gonna let him/her be. Whichever way you like. I don't care liao. But really, i was controlling myself all the while in cca... to not cry in front of my friends. Then it was... break time. I went up 3rd floor.. and saw lixin. At then, i really burst out crying. Because she's the only person i can tell everything to. Even small detail stuffs... i told her. We were like.... bestfriends with NO secrets. :D
Then i showed her the messages and cried. :(
Btw, she got no tissue! OMG... that means i have to run past all the other sec 1s so as to get to the toilet for some tissues. :((
After that, lixin went back for choir and i got back to my cca too. Felt alot, alot better. Thanks, lixin, you're awesome! (:
But was still troubled about that issue. When cca ends, went home... walked under the rain even though i got umbrella. Don't bother to take it out. I ♥ the rain today. Really lots. I really wished it had never stopped. Reached home... headache. NVM. No appetite during dinner, only ate 1/4 of porridge. NVM. Stomache. NVM. What MINDS: it just takes 1 thing to destroy everything. *sighs...
And, alot people came asking me what happened. Hmm... i'm better now, that's what i can say. Thanks anyway. (:
Chatted with Andy... thanks too. :D
I bet now he's still in my blog?? And finding a suitable NICKNAME for me?? Zzt.. -.-
OK, ending here lerhs~byebye~ :D

What is the secret to life?

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Betrayer, I'm one.

Now i know the truth.... the long lasted secret. He hates me a lot last time. Because i left him or something?? I forgot. But... i betrayed someone. My friend. The friend whom i kept quarreling with. She sacrificed herself for me and what did i do to her? It's so embarrassing to say. She's willing to give him up for me and i hurt her. Why am i like this? I'm not any better than her. I can't compare with her. I'm only snatching him away from her? And cause the break up and everything? Even if he likes me already, but still... i'm the cause of everything. Didn't expect me to be a betrayer when i said i hate BETRAYERS. Hah, nice.. i hate myself. I'm so bad... worst of all. Now, i feel so remorseful, so guilty, so..... speechless. Kor, you should've told me earlier, shouldn't you? If you tell me earlier, maybe i can still solve the problem MYSELF. But it's been..... almost a year then you told me. What's this?! You're making me feel bad! Awful.. I HATE IT. When you and her know it, and i'm not told when i'm the...... culprit? If you hadn't kept this a secret... at least it will not end in Oct. Maybe.... later? There's no point saying anything now... it's too late. Everything's too late. A scar had been left on me.... the betrayal scar........

Was chatting with 2nd kor just now.. and he told me something. So heartbreaking and...... awful. I immediately break down and cried madly. I didn't know i'm this bad. Now, the more... i cannot say anything to ____. I cannot betray anyone already. I hate... MYSELF.

What is the secret to life?

I hate it.

Will this post be a whole big chunk?? IDK. (:
Lols, today helped mama with the food.. then scalded myself 4 times. Wth? PAIN. :(
Then, did a lot of house chores. But bro like... being scolded for not doing (he playing!). Haha, i was half doing, half singing. And now i'm thirsty. LOL, i think i practising for my piano singing exam. It's coming soon and i'm kinda.... scared. Morning.. 2nd kor smsed me about him and his gf. I doubt everything's fine... but he lazy to tell me. I hope he's really alright. And, 1st kor.... since yesterday night, he's like.. so quiet. But then he said he's alright and it's nothing weird... but i really doubt it!! He.. was very very quiet these few days, not as active in msn, i just feels weird. HAIZ... nobody wants to tell me the truth? Or that... there's really.................. nothing? Idk. Stupid stuffs keep bothering me these few days. I was now... NOT ALRIGHT AT ALL!! It's really tiring to go after things that weren't completely told. If nobody wants to finish what they're saying, DON'T SPOUT OUT ANYTHING! DON'T LET ME KNOW ANYTHING! I'M REALLY TIRED ASKING WHY, WHY, WHY, A THOUSAND TIMES AND IN THE END, IT'S STILL 'NOTHING' THAT I GET FROM EVERYONE!! I.HATE.IT! Now i'm not feeling great already. It's really STUPID bothering about these stuffs, but that's me. Maybe... i shouldn't know that much.... maybe it'll be better to not know... everything.

What is the secret to life?

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Please just leave... i'm miserable.

Went piano with mom today and bought cooking ingredients. But all the way i was chatting with jj. -.-
Cos mom went to the freezer and it's way TOO cold!!! So mom told me to stay away from there. Haha... btw, it's a long chat and was funny. (:
He called me idiot, like countless times? LOL. But, but... I EXPOSED HIM!! HE'D BEEN CAUGHT RED-HANDED!! Haha... want to know what or how? Go FB! And like my status! Zzt... but i doubt anyone will do that. I'm feeling so extra now. Nvm... it's fun. Hahaha.. seriously, he's silly to say such a thing. I never thought of tricking him into saying that. But he just said. RETARDED. T.T
Haiz... gotta help him with something. AND, next time cannot pretend never see him and run away from that "ghost" (no offense to the 7th month) liao sia. But he'll gonna spot me. HAHAS, let's see.... i doubt he'll be able to? (:
Change topic! Zzt. -.-
Was kinda... emo today. I think i should be the one being said to be EMO. Idk everything/anything. I don't get everything/anything. It's just because of ___ ____. Before knowing ___, i'm better. At least... i don't get to emo. Idk what to say now... just that, the ____'s back. And it's all because of ___! I SHOULDN'T GET AFFECTED, BUT WHY AM I?! WHEN I KNEW THAT ____'S ANGRY/ANNOYED/WHATEVER AND IT'S THE CAUSE OF ME, I'LL JUST BREAK DOWN. IT'S WEIRD AND.... RARE. I really can't take it. In school, i hoped to ___ ___. At home, i'm ____ ____ ____. WHAT'S THIS?!! P.L.E.A.S.E J.U.S.T L.E.T E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G E.N.D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And, i promise...... this will be the last post/time i'll blog about that person. _____, are you fine after reading this? It's nothing. If you're upset, tell me. Yes, you still have chance. Don't grieve or think of anything until i..... confirm everything. But i doubt this will ever going to end. But no matter what, i'll not upset you again. Sorry... and thanks.

What is the secret to life?

Friday, August 20, 2010

Sorry to have fallen for him

Today like... don't feel like blogging but still force myself to. Went up and down the stairs with lixin this morning. Cos she waiting for the bookshop to open but... it hadn't. -.-
So then... when i saw jj, ERHEM, i ran away. Cos need to say HI when i see him.. then................. i don't want. After school ends, went staff room give mdm tang her project works. Saw.... him. He saw me. If i were to sms him, he'll ask: "WHY are you avoiding me?" Cos i didn't say hello or anything when i see him. IDK why, but don't dare to. Let's just forget about that part, will we? Then during lunch time, saw jj again. He walking towards my direction but not towards me though, and afraid he'll see me and i have to say HI, i walked (almost ran) 1 whole big round around the canteen and at last, back to my table. Hahaha... hilarious sia. :DD
After lunch, got ict. Then went home with lixin. Forgot what we talked about liao. Haiz... this strange _____, why is it there again? I'm not too sure about that... and i don't think i want to be sure about it. It'll....... hurt. 2 of them. I DON'T WANT. Well... i should wait... and wait... but maybe it's not like how i thought it is. Nvm....... i should be patient and wait till everything's over. That'll be fair to 3 of us, i guess?? I'm sorry if anyone feels hurt after reading this post. Is there any? You? Or you?? Nvm.... i'll keep it to myself even if i'm right.
First: Don't want to feel guilty.
Second: Don't want to betray.
Third: Don't want to hurt anyone.
Fourth: Everything will eventually be ok and back to normal. I hope so.
Fifth: I'm......... sorry.

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Thursday, August 19, 2010

I'm not going to be the one again.

Was not emoing today. But was hyper! And, random. Haha... we 1E1 rawk mans... this morning took 4 certificates. (Y)
All thanks to iannzen (maths UNSW), sing ong (maths UNSW), loke boon (digital portfolio, best!) and OUR CLASS FOR BEING THE CLEANEST CLASS. Lols. It might sound silly though. During mt lesson.... mdm tang showed us some disastrous photos. So heartbroken and touching. Going to cry, but never. Then, ms ang showed up. She passed me her message. When i read it... immediately i cry. Only jia wen knows ba (safe! Zzt..). Ohmy, a real thanks to ms ang. But.... will i be able to see her again after tomorrow? Hope YES. Hope she's coming back on teachers' day celebration. Awaits you!~ (:
Went for hmt... chatted with javier, ming en and li xin at bus stop. Then, they're gone. Haha... anyway, i waiting for iris and yan shan. Then.. got back class test. After that, chatted with jamiah, iris and yan shan on bus. LOLS, we're talking about gays, jing jie, wei lin, jin fang and all. Firstly, jamiah and i DON'T BELIEVE JINGJIE IS GAY! Diao... he said he IS. And he kept emphasizing it. As if we will believe him, even if he puts 'Jing Jie is in a relationship with wei lin'. And so, i want to expose him sia. Finding chances anyway.... :DD
Kept laughing on bus... and iris laughed damn loud?! Whatever... i'm still trying to get over with it. The matter. Btw, i just realized that i cry a lot these few days. Like... consecutively. What's wrong? IDK. Today is slightly better. Didn't really expect anything from that person. And basically was ignoring it. I told myself that, "I'm not going to sms him, unless there are some important issues. Either he sms me first, or........ FORGET IT." And... i mean it sia. It's like... i sms him, he'll ignore some. Fb... he NEVER reply me. -.-
I don't get him anymore... and i don't think i wants to. Haiz.... abit random today. Anyway... i'm stopping here le.

What is the secret to life?

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Played freesbee during PE. Not quite fun playing with THEM. Zzt... what SHE says just pisses me off. I'd rather she not say anything so as to not be so busybody. WHATEVER. I don't care. Well, got maths test, CT and mother tongue test for our class today. Ahh, are you guys alright after the 3 tests? I hope so. (:
LOLS. Saw him like... 2 times? Idk whether he knows it's me (but i think so. He looked in my direction) cos I PRETENDED TO NOT SEE HIM! Hahahas... JOKE SIA. Second time... i can't possibly stare or look at him, so i just turned away. Anyway, he's heading home after coursework. But why the heck am i blogging about him? MAKES NO SENSE. -.-
Played floorball during cca... was rather fun. XD
Love floorball mans! After that... go home. Was emoing since like.... 5 25? LOLS. I even look at the time? That's dumb! Btw, idk why either. Maybe because of......... that thing? I just can't forget it. Idk, i feel that he's avoiding me in SMS. He don't reply me sometimes. IDK WHY. -.-
Nvm... i just want to forget about that thing and.......... why does time flies so fast? It's only left with like....... 3 months. I thought this year..... will past slower and slowly. Come to think of that, i was going to cry. Btw, i shouldn't be the one caring so much YET i am. IDON'TKNOWWHY! Haiz... btw, gratz wei lun, for his O level. HAHA... miracle? And... YOU.. have faith in yourself, kays? But you ignored my message....?

Suan liao.. life will not going to be the same. I have a lot of things to clarify of you. But i wouldn't dare to ask.. and i know you will say NOTHING. But.. putting everything inside me is like... pressure. I hate this kind of pressure. I really hope you'll tell me EVERYTHING one day. The........... last day... also can? But i scared i might regret or something. I MUST not think anything further than ______. I know it very clearly.......... that you'll be gone ONE DAY. And i cannot say anything. We'll see... but don't ignore me, not even my message. What's wrong sia? Fine... just don't ignore. It seems like you don't know the feeling of being ignored, be it message, fb or........ talks. Now then i realized that life _____.

What is the secret to life?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Can it cure by apologizing?

Nothing really happened today. But idk why my post have been so short these few days.. LOL. But i really don't bother to recall what i've done today.

@YOU: Haha, are you reading this? Hope you are. I'm fine btw. I hope you are as well. LOL, i cried.. not for anything. Cos even me, also don't know what i cried for. But anyway, thanks. Give me time, maybe? I mean..... i told you i couldn't differentiate both. Or maybe... i don't even know how each felt liao. I'm terribly sorry. Seriously, i feel so guilty to not reply you sia. But if i say YES, then... what if in real, it's NO? And what if i say NO, but in turn, it's YES? Haiz... i'm sorry. Really, other than sorry, idk what to say. :(

Seriously, i AM sorry...... and, what if i'd never asked you?

What is the secret to life?

Monday, August 16, 2010

My secret...

Idk what to blog about today. It's as if... everything had never happened, only his messages stayed. Well, i didn't mean anything. As. A.Friend. We were smsing since like... during MT lesson. Then he ask me a question which i think is DAMN funny, but at the same time, i want to ask him why ask that question. LOL. In the end, idk what he misunderstood... or.............. hmm, idk... but he just, suddenly feel so agitated and....... angry. Idk why, so i asked him. He said NOTHING. In CAPS. I kept asking............................................................
Ah, well.. i think i cannot continue le.. whatever.

//Lixin: When everything ends, i'll tell you. We have NO secrets. XD

What is the secret to life?

Friday, August 13, 2010

Instincts are never wrong for me.

So... my instincts and senses are wrong? Or right? And, you don't seems to want to answer me. I'm one who wish/hope/WAIT. Well, i know my instincts are right.. so i'll continue believing.

Well, i miss 2 of you... idk why. Zzzt. -.-

What is the secret to life?

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Tell me, i'm here.

Well, you told him something. And i felt so weird after listening to what he told me. I wants to know what you want. I mean... do you have something to tell me? Or.. ask me? I'm here! If you're thinking of something and you wants to speak, just open your mouth and tell me. Now you makes me emo... and idk why I AM. My senses, am i sensing the correct thing.. that you certainly have something to tell me? And now, i don't understand you. Maybe even from the start, i don't. But now, idk what you're thinking cos you don't speak. You said that weird sentence. How/what do you expect me to know? Plus, what do you expect me to do now? Your thoughts are becoming more and more opaque. I can't see through them anymore. Unless you let me. Here, i'm waiting. Waiting for you to SMS, MSN, FB chat, or CALL me. Up to you, but i want you to SPEAK! I.DON'T.GET.IT!

Btw, happy birthday, 4th kor! How's the "tawpok"? HAHA... hilarious. (:

What is the secret to life?

Monday, August 09, 2010

SHOPPING!

OMG, how to say? Today's damn awesome?! Haha.. went to TM to repair bro's phone. Actually he want buy new one but mom and dad don't allow. THEN, he show attitude. Whatever, dad also show attitude lurh. Ah, that ruins 1/8 of my day. HAHA, i get pissed after all. So then, in the end he go repair. Can retrieve it back on wed. After that went to Centre Point to shop cos got vouchers of $300!! Wah.. haha. :D
LOLS.

LOLS, shades.

Zzt, that's bro. Trying to act "cool" ar, huh? HAHA...

Alright, alright. Next we went to ^^^^

Ok, these are shades sold in ESPRIT, different from the before ones. (:

DIAO! I inside the fitting room.. OK, that's my new shirt.

Zzt. -.-

Yeah, this is the grey one.

Okay, so in the end bought the blue one.

LOLS, zebra tights?? T.T

OMG, i seriously want them! You don't know how nice they are! OHMYGOD.

*GUESS: What's inside? Hahas..

Da dang! Hahas, facial cleanser. (:

EXPENSIVE YOU KNOW! COST MY MOM $47.70 FOR 3 ITEMS ONLY SIA. Haha, relax. She used the vouchers to pay. Wahhaha.. XD

Then we went starbucks for some light bites. 3 people share one coffee or something. (:

My bro's chocolate muffin. LOOK THE WAY HE EAT THE FOOD TILL.. x.x

Ahh! My cinnamon roll! <3>.<

Then went to the toilet. My bro say the toilet like hotel kind. Zzt.

"HI!" Hahas..

Well, a book store, like popular kind.

Saw this but i edited and blanko the name. DON'T ASK WHY! -.-ll

Darren, one of my fb's friend. although idk how he looks like. DIAO.

Bought this pen from the book store and it's so great.

Next, went in this music store beside the book store. AWESOME, let's begin the adventures!

MINE! You're mine, GI KWANG! Hahas.. and wan ting's. XD

This is 4 MINUTE. (:
LOLS, i took pictures of them secretly, hehe..

Hm....

Quite chio.. (:

Woo...

T-ARA, you're mine too..!! <3>

Nice watch!
[AND BTW, we're at the next shopping mall : 313 NOW!!]

Heehee, the hat. OMG, i look retarded in this picture. Don't look! *cover, cover!

Don't know why, found myself (my thumb, i mean..) bleeding before having dinner.

Nasi Padang. SPICY SIA... *omg.

Bought an ice lemon tea. NICE.

End up become like this, pro right? HAHAS...

AND my drink also empty liao...

OH, okay... didn't realize i've finish sharing the pictures. HAHA, lols. Idk what more to say. Anyway, let's end it here. *yawns!~

What is the secret to life?

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Stop hurting her.

//__: Yes, some of the words you said make sense... but you're the cause of that ridiculous ending. You said you would change. But did you? Why push the blame? You never said anything, is it just acting? Well, you can say you didn't say anything, but you can do it behind her back, who knows? She thought you're pretty good, but what she'd never expected is that it'll turn out to be like this. Can you just wash your hands off everything of hers? DON'T INTERFERE IN HER STUFFS ANYMORE. You'll only rub salt on her wound. Let her heal please......
Well, i don't want to judge, but by the things you said, just isn't that nice and polite. It's hers anyway, why do you want to snatch? To you, maybe it's nothing. But to her, you're despicable. You said you ____ ____, but after what you did, what had you done again? ____ ____ and find another one? AND WHAT YOU DID... HURTS. IT HURTS HER ALOT. You wouldn't know how she felt at that point of time. BREAK DOWN? ......

//__: Girl, give it a try. Change a little, accept people's ideas and listen to people's thoughts. You'll find that everything changes. At least you should change for the better. Whereas if she doesn't change herself, at least you did. It'll benefit. Benefits YOU.

I'm speechless for a minute or so. Idk what to say sia. Stucked. Shocked. Yes, she's correct for saying that, but then she also cannot think that she's always the better one. At least if she's not happy with her, then she should clear it in front of her. She shouldn't sneak behind her and backstab her just like that. Now you tell her, what should she do? Are you going to heal her?

What is the secret to life?

Friday, August 06, 2010

Go for it, you'll never know.

Today got national day celebration, as well as speech day. But it's kinda... more like speech day sia. Wore red tee.. haha. Need to perform for the VIPs. But after the stage performances. Cos guzheng not performing on stage. Zzt. Exceptional. -.-
Before performance, was watching modern dance and prize giving with agnes. Well, gratz you, for receiving the prize. Next time must jiayou horh. BTW, HE like.. avoiding me sia... or maybe he still don't know how i look like? Saw him like... alot of times. Then we gaze at each other like 2 times, but he IGNORED me! What's this?! Ergh... still say he not avoiding me, say i'm the one avoiding him. LOLS. Next time i'll spam him with 'HI!'. Diao. So, after performance, went to eat with wan ting. Lixin went to mac or KFC with charmin, i think. But school got buffet, so i ate it. LOLS. Then went up to keep guzheng, wan ting wait for me in canteen. And after that got ICT lesson, went up with her and were chatting. Almost cried again, cos her "story" very touching. HAHAS, then did some ICT stuffs and played bball with wan ting, aylwin, 4th kor, weng hoong, chiaying and 3rd kor. Was rather fun, but i got zero skills. HAHA, hilarious sia. I chopped before, but not when matched. LOL. So i didn't helped them score any, nearly only. I still need to train lurh. (:
Played till like... 4 45? Then the auntie say, "I want close door liao, go out now." Zzt. Walked to bus stop with wan ting, then she left first. Anyway, that's how the day ends. Bball is awesome!~

//wan ting: I really hope that you'll patch up. Like what people say, you won't know until you try. So, just give it all. Even if it will end that way, at least you have some happy times and that you won't regret as you had tried and gave your best. I don't want you to regret. FTW, wan ting! ^.*

What is the secret to life?

Thursday, August 05, 2010

I Hate You Now.

WHAT'S THE PROBLEM SIA? YOU ONLY THINK THAT YOU'RE RIGHT AND TRYING ALL YOUR MIGHT TO DESTROY EVERYTHING. WHAT'S THIS? YOU MIGHT AS WELL SAY OUT AND CLEAR EVERYTHING. WHAT I KNOW IS, YOU'RE DESPICABLE JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT IT FOR YOURSELF AND YOU JUST IGNORE EVERYONE, EVERYTHING......

Omg.. i seriously AM angry. But i can't use vulgar here! Or else i'll spam! -.-
Watched Ip Man II during mt lesson... and listening to someone say "story". Such sour and miserable story... but i hope we're both fine. ^.*
Nothing really happened, just that I'M PISSED OFF JUST NOW, AFTER SEEING THOSE HATE-ABLE STUFFS, THOSE 'WTH!' STUFFS. YOU JUST THINK THAT WHATEVER YOU DOING IS WHAT YOU CALL ____. BUT THE FACT IS, IT ISN'T. DON'T YOU THINK IT'S WAY TOO OVERBOARD?! ......

What is the secret to life?

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

No more please!

Ahh haha..!! Today i told lixin that i'm gonna restrict myself from saying any vulgar. Hahas.. then lixin and wan ting also join the "game". LOLS. If anyone of us said a vulgar, then we'll be smacked by either of us. HAHA. Awesome! But then... now like no "vocab" can use sia. Cos that time will sometimes use some irrelevant "vocab". Then now like... all of a sudden cannot use. Still not very comfortable with it. :(
Nvm, we challenging ourselves and it was great. Wait till the time when we can actually control the amount of vulgarities used then we are free to use again. HAHA.

[x]What the heck
[x]Stupid
[ ]Ass-hole
[ ]F**k
[ ]B*tch
[ ]Basterd
[ ]Walao
[ ]Shit
[ ]CB
[ ]LJ
[ ]KNS
[ ]KNN (kanina)
[ ]Go & die
[ ]Suck

*( [x]=allowed | [ ]=NOT allowed )

AH, whatever! And i'm also restricting myself from saying those above in blog as well. HAHA. Told bro about this and he was like... trying to influence me in saying those "vocab" above. Hahas... but you know what, it's a FAIL. Muahaha!~ (:
Anyway, wan ting.. you'd better watch out next time. Haha, i may spank you from anywhere and everywhere. AWESOME!~
Btw, SHE keep saying she ****** with *****. Like what the heck?! As if we're not. Zzt. -.-
I feel that SHE's just trying to *** ***** to *****. Nvm, lixin say horh... if SHE happens to **** *****, then she'll just ****** with her. HAHA! So damn funny. I was laughing all the way! FTW, lixin! And and! HE so cute sia! Yesterday on bus he damn funny... lixin and i were so bad.. went laughing and laughing. Well, hope he never notice. Wakakaka!!~ ((:
Haiz. BTW, BTW, I'll still worry about my vulgarities level. Cos if facing those 2 PEOPLE, i feel that i can't control it. Nvm, i'll not use. Alright, alright, i'll try to not hate them as time goes by... BUT IF THEY LIKE... CONTINUE FOOLING AROUND LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS, THEN I'LL CALL OF THIS TRYING STUFF. OKAY? :D
Btw, our class like change alot lurh. GREATLY. I meant the people. -.-
Like.....

Javier: Become a little bit more like pai kia.

Darien: Don't know why, but totally change after not being the chairperson (maybe because of that stupid person there? -.-). Like to talk back to teacher and speak RUBBISH. TOTALLY CHANGE & IT'S NOT A KIDDING MATTER OKAY.

Weng Hoong: So far no change sia!!~

Wan Ting: Become more mature and like... hardworking than before. 1 more! Become prettier~ AWESOME. (:

Aylwin: Better now! Alot better! He become damn damn damn good. Hahas.. >.<

Iannzen: *(mouth shut. :x)

Zzt, i'll get going now!

Oh yeah, if you guys saw any vulgarities used here by me, tag and tell me!~
You can get to spank me in school (for those in BGSS. -.-)~
^.*

What is the secret to life?

Monday, August 02, 2010

Sad Process

Aw, today's such a sad day......
Got back maths common test. At first thought that i will fail sia. Cos when i take the test, idk how do the inequalities questions! At that point of time, my mind just went blank for inequalities. Well, was actually praying to not fail COS I DON'T WANT TO FAIL ANY SUBJECTS! SO FAR I HAVEN'T! And i don't want to disappoint ms liza. Thinking of that, i almost cried. -.-
So then ms liza called my name. I don't dare to look at my paper. But haha, i passed. But still not quite relieve cos it wasn't very great. I.DON'T.LIKE.THIS.RESULT. Zzt... anyway, go through paper and i got 1 question not sure... so then went to ms liza and ask. In the end found out that my working is wrong.. AND SO, GOT TO DEDUCT 2 MARKS! At that point of time, i can't control myself anymore... i just burst out crying. At first when ms liza said that, i already had tears in my eyes... but soon they just roll down. What can i do? Ms liza know i cried, duh! Cos i cry in front of her. But i didn't beg her to not deduct my marks... but at then, i really broke down. I manage to pass and i was relieve (although not very) and now what?! Gonna deduct another 2 marks?! Might as well tell me go and die. I seriously don't want disappoint ms liza sia... that's also 1 of the reason why i cried. She said it's alright... and in the end she didn't deduct my 2 marks... but tell me to learn a lesson from that. Well, i still do not feel ok. COS I SOUNDS LIKE A LOSER. I SEEMS LIKE A LOSER. AND I FEELS LIKE A LOSER! JUST BECAUSE OF THIS, I CRIED AND END UP NOT GETTING MY 2 MARKS DEDUCTED JUST BECAUSE MS LIZA IS OK WITH IT. WHAT IS THIS SIA?! Haiz... so then i was really melancholic... don't even know how to talk to ms liza. FORGET IT. I've learnt my lesson, alright? During MT lesson... mdm tang said some true sad story and almost cried again... wan ting also. Hahas... and then MY FINGER GOT INTERNAL BLEEDING DURING GUZHENG! COS MUST HIT THE STRING AND I HIT ALOT OF TIMES, PAIN LIKE WHAT. AND BLOOD JUST FLOWS OUT. TOO PAIN LIAO, CAN'T EVEN WASH DISHES. Stupid sia... -.-
Let you see my finger:

Oh, fine.. i don't expect you to see anything from this blur picture taken. -.-

At least here you can see the red portion on my left hand middle finger. PAIN!!! :x
(please do not say, "Aiyo, so small cut or what only, no big deal." -.- COS IT'S REALLY PAINFUL!)

KNS, need plaster sia, if not my fingers will die off!

-.-

Haiz... now typing need use index finger which is kinda... NOT USE TO IT. Stupid...
Anyway, i'm ending here. No mood to blog today... ~~i'm being carried away~~ (:

What is the secret to life?