Today was great... if i delete some parts of the day. First thing was the hilarious influencing thing. Today's post was specially meant for WAN TING. But before that.......... those who saw the commotion that happened yesterday in class, dont assume that it's darien's fault or that he started it first, OKAY. Dont take what you see as the truth when you dont know what exactly
they'd done when they werent with us. PLEASE. Thats not fair.

Okay, wan ting... i want to get things sorted out today. ASAP. But it depends on whether you want or not. I ask questions, you reply. You ask questions, i reply. Fair?
1. Why did you say i was the one influencing ****** (i dont wish to put him in difficult spot so
no one says out who the person is, okay?)?
2. In what way?
3. What did he scold you?
4. For what?
5. When?

Questions done. Now... my opinion. Yes, i said you're irresponsible. At that, i admit LOSE. Fine? And sorry. But beyond that, you've to explain to me. Cos i dont get any single thing you say about influencing. I DONT GET IT. But the purpose of today's post is not about understanding what you and your friends said about. It's to tell you......... I DONT MIND WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT ME. You can say i'm a bitch, sucker, fucker, grammer-failer, humji, and whatever you like. But i wont say anything. I'll just treat it like... a wind blowing. Like all those words never exist. Mainly for the sake of ******. You and your friends are his good friends, and i'm his *blablabla. I dont want our quarrel to put him in a difficult spot. He's already stressed and troubled, i dont wish to add on to them.
And, i'd never claimed that i understand javier/******. I know i dont. But dont assume you do as well. Maybe you understand javier more than me. MAYBE. But not ******. You dont know what exactly he wants. What exactly HE WANTS. Yes, i dont understand fully of him, but at least i know some parts of him. It's the hideous part... that is the most important to me. You dont know.... because he always act like nothing happened! Like he's an opaque material that light cant pass through. Like you cant know what's he thinking about. But if you ever be close to him, try to understand him, you can actually know them. He's complicated. Even being close to him, i cant guess what he's thinking. Like.... what he's thinking and his actions doesnt match. If he didnt say he got *****, will anyone ever know? NO. If he never says what he wanted from HIS FRIENDS, will anyone know as well? NO. He just doesnt speak. He just wanted to bear the responsibility. Whatever ****** it is, he'll always carry it. He doesnt want to ***** his trouble with *******. NOT even me at first. But when you make him feels the importance of some things, he'll just speak. Does anybody know that he still has ***** today yet he insisted on ******* other than someone and i?? Its like.... everybody assume he's changed. But do you know WHY? Yes, maybe you still think it's because of me. And maybe you still thinks that i'm bitchy. But why dont you ask him yourself? If not directly, then indirectly! Yet you're just picking on me. I dont get WHY.

Specially for Javier:
I know you trust your friend more than me. Haha... that's freaking bad. But now i see the importance of friends in your eyes. I really dont mind. Who tell you to be my gor? But today it hurts more when you....... first, dont trust me. Second, say i got spies. Third, show wan ting everything. Cant we have SOME privacy? WTH?! Ah, like i care more than that. You also, continue your BIG (you say not gossip what, right?) talk with your that group of friends. It wont even affect me. At least from today onwards.
DONE!

Today was seriously not being myself. Was thinking what actually went wrong. And where the hell did this influencing thing pop out from? I wont care anymore. I SERIOUSLY DONT WANT TO HURT ****** ANYMORE! I'M WONDERING IF I SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM HIM TODAY BUT ALL OF YOU ARE JUST TALKING ABOUT INFLUENCING. INFLUENCING, INFLUENCING AND INFLUENCING! BUT HE DOESNT KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON AND IF I JUST DO WHATEVER STUFFS I LIKE WITHOUT CONSIDERING ABOUT HIM, HE'LL GO MAD. Let me tell you, i'm one who is hyper and rarely emo. But today i'm totally not being myself. Not hyper today, always thinking about the influencing stuff, which i dont get it at all, worrying about ****** if he really can manage till the end of the ***. This is totally NOT me. So... like i said, whatever things you said to me, IDC. I'll treat it like it's never been heard. I wont shout, wont scream. Wont do anything. TRUST me. I'm one who WILL do what i SAID.

Enough of these stupid stuffs le ba? Lets say the great things to make me feel better. Presurizing it in me. So... ran 1.8km today. Haha... cos was accompanying lixin run. 1st round, no worries. 2nd round.... i ran with her. Cos got muscle cramp, she stopped. I kept nagging eh. Then she was like... stomach cramp sia. After that, charmin, chewhui, yunyi, yukie and i were like.... WOW... 5 mouths nagging and nagging. We like... run, jog, walk, nag, pull. Muahaha. And that thick-skin girl go KPO, run for what? Run 1 round jiu stop, run for what? Want to run with *blabla arh?? LOLS.
Anyway, lixin passed! Omg... hahas... charmin, all our efforts never go to the drain ma! ((:
Well, i also believed lixin will pass de what. But junkai....... ah, nvm de la! At least he did his best although he didnt pass. Wah, after that feel like having a party like that. Cos everybody like... put in so much effort. Wakaka.... 1E1 jiayou!! ^.^
But now my leg aches. Btw, morning after assembly, my whole of right leg cramp like shit. Cant even walk. Stood there for less than 5 seconds then try walking again with lixin and charmin. Saw HIM. But i walk the other side. Then saw jj. With his friends. And horh, squirrel is damn freaking cute ah! But when he got serious, it's seriously NOT cute. Hahaha.... on the same bus as him today, with lixin. :D
Okay, i think i gtg le. Enough le. Later have to write situational writing again.




//'*' signs represent the things that i dont want to mention it out. Especially when posting for wan ting. Cos i dont want let that person know. Later he'll be worrying again. Things that needed his worry is already enough. I dont want to actually get him involved in this, OKAY?
//'*blablabla' is something that i doesnt want to say so as not to make it obvious.