Sian.... now doing homework. Need to collect photographs, parents and relatives' name... to make a family tree. LOLS..... need picture sia.... suan liao... -.-
Today woke up very late.... cos muscle ache like shit... dont feel like waking up. And.... wake up so early for what?! Just to plurk, blog, be heartbroken (has not heal)... and nothing more. -.-
Do all those meaningless things.... things that i feel like putting them aside when i'm filled with works. But feel like having or using them when i feel so low... feel so retard.... feel so horrible!
What makes a difference...? After considering him as a retard, an idiot, a dumbass, a freaker... doesnt make me feel great at all....
Instead, it makes the hole in me BIGGER. Like bubbles inside me.... at anytime, anywhere, anyhow... they will BURST. As and when they like....... uncontrollable.
Fine.... words that had already been spoken out cannot be taken back.... cannot be hide....
Life just SUCKS. And it'll NEVER, never change. Unless its the day when world ends... TOTALLY.
Sian.... no point talking about these things right? No point...... i just wanted sku, homeworks and WORKS to fill me... to fill my time... to fill my mind, my thoughts... and fill up my everything, including the freaking hole there.... in my heart.
YES, more works does make me feel better.... make me a better person......




By treating me like this, is this actually called as PROTECTING? You said you will protect me... even as a brother and sister, but you failed. You suck at keeping your words.... and i'd never forgotten what you'd promised me. Just... NEVER.