Must be quick with my post, otherwise dizziness will overcome me.
Right, talked to qinghai about my problem. And felt better afterwards. Thanks. (:
Went out around 4.30 with 2 bags of things. And came home with only 1 bag... cos returned my library books and shop a little. On the way home on the bus.. felt a little bit dizzy. Rested on mom's shoulder. Took a bath after that. I'm tired, yet felt very warm. The water's warm. Rather than hot. Its warm enough to keep me from the cold. And of course... dizziness does fill some part of me. Till now, yeah. I dont feel good, duh! Lols.... i thought about the past. And saw many TKPS de students. Mostly p5s. Hope they do well in their psle next year. GOODLUCK ba! ((:
As to why i couldnt get along well with someone is because..... our character or/and personality's completely different. How to be closer to each other? CANT. I wanted to... cos to me, that person's very good. Its that..... no matter what, we cannot get along. So... i've had to end our sibling-ship or w/e. ASAP. Or else the ending's not gonna be good. I always realized there's sth missing or sth's wrong between us. I cannot be myself around that person. CANNOT. I cant.... no matter what i does. When that person went away, i return to the original me. Me, the riginal huiling. And i felt relax. When the person's there, around me, i felt pressurized. Its like a burden. Sorry for that. But we're seriously not suited to be very close to each other. Thats NOT the reason why i didnt want the person to be my sibling. Its..... the way that person talks. I dont like the way he/she talks to me. Yes, DISLIKE. What can i do? If not suited to be near, not suited to be close, just end it. It'll be better, isnt it? Maybe it HAD already been better. Nvm, just thought of it suddenly. Cos on bus.... very bored. Although with my earphone.
And.......... i didnt want THAT. I.DONT.WANT.THAT. I just feel its very disgusting. Very EEEK. "Yikes!" is what i said in my heart when i saw that. But.... idk which part of me is disobeying me. I think it'll feel good to have someone being around you, yeah? I mean... that kind. =.=
Haiz... i also dont know what i talking about. I just have many things to say, many things to blog about. Feel very complicated today. Feel like there's some hole in me or rock or whatever thing. Its like.... couldnt breathe. Well, gor knows that. I mean... he knows the reason, i think.... if he remembers (but will he even rmb?). Always happening. Not always... but when i'm complicated.
Haiz.... suan liao.... ending here le.... if not, i'm gonna die liao...




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