Mine.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Complicated

Must be quick with my post, otherwise dizziness will overcome me.
Right, talked to qinghai about my problem. And felt better afterwards. Thanks. (:
Went out around 4.30 with 2 bags of things. And came home with only 1 bag... cos returned my library books and shop a little. On the way home on the bus.. felt a little bit dizzy. Rested on mom's shoulder. Took a bath after that. I'm tired, yet felt very warm. The water's warm. Rather than hot. Its warm enough to keep me from the cold. And of course... dizziness does fill some part of me. Till now, yeah. I dont feel good, duh! Lols.... i thought about the past. And saw many TKPS de students. Mostly p5s. Hope they do well in their psle next year. GOODLUCK ba! ((:
As to why i couldnt get along well with someone is because..... our character or/and personality's completely different. How to be closer to each other? CANT. I wanted to... cos to me, that person's very good. Its that..... no matter what, we cannot get along. So... i've had to end our sibling-ship or w/e. ASAP. Or else the ending's not gonna be good. I always realized there's sth missing or sth's wrong between us. I cannot be myself around that person. CANNOT. I cant.... no matter what i does. When that person went away, i return to the original me. Me, the riginal huiling. And i felt relax. When the person's there, around me, i felt pressurized. Its like a burden. Sorry for that. But we're seriously not suited to be very close to each other. Thats NOT the reason why i didnt want the person to be my sibling. Its..... the way that person talks. I dont like the way he/she talks to me. Yes, DISLIKE. What can i do? If not suited to be near, not suited to be close, just end it. It'll be better, isnt it? Maybe it HAD already been better. Nvm, just thought of it suddenly. Cos on bus.... very bored. Although with my earphone.
And.......... i didnt want THAT. I.DONT.WANT.THAT. I just feel its very disgusting. Very EEEK. "Yikes!" is what i said in my heart when i saw that. But.... idk which part of me is disobeying me. I think it'll feel good to have someone being around you, yeah? I mean... that kind. =.=
Haiz... i also dont know what i talking about. I just have many things to say, many things to blog about. Feel very complicated today. Feel like there's some hole in me or rock or whatever thing. Its like.... couldnt breathe. Well, gor knows that. I mean... he knows the reason, i think.... if he remembers (but will he even rmb?). Always happening. Not always... but when i'm complicated.
Haiz.... suan liao.... ending here le.... if not, i'm gonna die liao...

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What is the secret to life?

New

Time flies..... today's the last day of 2009. TWO-ZERO-ZERO-NINE. Haiz.... feel a little bad for it.... maybe i didnt cherish this whole year ba. Nvm.... 2010 coming. I'm IN for it. Wanna do which ever i can do. And never feel regretful again.
Later going out.... to return the library books. Now.... i still not yet have the confidence in me to be in a new environment. But i guess... i dont have to worry. All the sec 1 are NEW. Not only me. Yeah, NOT ONLY ME. I just have to be in sku like how i be in primary sku. TKPS... i MISS you. )):
Haiz... feel very bad. Feel like crying. But crying doesnt change anything. I just have to look forward and leave everything behind. HEY, HUILING! ITS NOT LIKE THE WORLD'S GONNA END! SO... STOP ALL THIS NONSENSE AND JUST DO EVERYTHING WELL FROM TODAY ONWARDS!
Lols... i'm trying to comfort myself. Well... you can say i'm C.R.A.Z.Y. Maybe i really AM. Whatever.
Really need some time to cope new things, 10 new subjects, new environment, new friends, new teachers..............................................................
EVERYTHING that is NEW, i have to cope them. Haiz... have to believe in myself ba... otherwise no one will have faith in me. FAITH.
Right, WORK HARD FROM TODAY ONWARDS, HUILING!
SIMHUILING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!! :D

What is the secret to life?

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Failed

Hi... yesterday de HOPE vanished already. Lols... never watch the movie. =.=
Just feel like blogging. Realized lots of ppl visited indonesia. WOW. I hope ME too. O.O
Skipped playing piano. Hehe... :D
Never wanted to eat dinner.... the food sucks. Maybe i'll just take a bite on some biscuits later. Mmmm.
Hope can quickly move on to eclipse liao lorhs..... but still with new moon. Bella, the saver. =.=
Cannot see HIM. Sians.... and have to meet **** somemore... that makes me PUKE! Eeek. But... no choice de lurhs... IDC either. Muahaha! XD
There's also nothing to feel embarrassed about.... its just the STARTING. Rmb, please. The STARTING. I've failed once. ONCE. So... there's no more twice. NO MORE. I promised! So.... just meet with fate and work harder, HUILING! There's nothing to be afraid of... NOTHING.
The ~~person~~ people who look down on ME, better try to do sth. This time round, you'll not be ******.

What is the secret to life?

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Itchy

Wow... very long never post le. Now hands itchy. Just want to move. So i decided to blog...
Just done dad's b'day card. Lols... i help bro do somemore. =.=
He's as lazy as usual. O.O
Yesterday sms qinghai again. Lol... never get promoted then he wanna quit. *BISH* him! Hahas... LOL. Just jiayou lurhs! KK? ^.*
Lols... i'm waiting fer mom. Which is so stupid. I know the chance for watching movie is only 10%, yet i'm waiting. WAITING and HOPING. =.="
Ah, w/e! At least have 10%.... hahas... still hoping. Well... added new song. But... only 1. >.<
Bogoshipda. XD
Cant find another one. Too bad. Too sad. Lol... hands really itchy beh...
Just 5 days to 4 jan.... now i feel less excited le... dont know why. But hope i does well in sec. Haiz... HOPING. :D
Kays, bye le... kinda sleepy liao (but dont wanna sleep. :P).

What is the secret to life?

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Qinghai

I'm so called sneaking to blog. Lols.... gotta pack my sku bag soon... but before that i'll have to play piano again. Hope today can watch 2 disc. Zzt. Seriously is nice. But why didnt i dream of it? Hey, i love dreaming when sleeping. XD
Weird, yeah?? Hahas... thats me, huiling. :D
Jamie... haiz... i'll consider... so just please wait. Guess you dont know why i didnt want to unlink you ba. Actually there's really no need to leave your trace in my blog. But... lol... just feel like it. What to do? I'll be better to actually take it as a request than begging. Muahaha!~
9 april... blk 142... O.O
Hehe... my friend! Zzt... feel so hyper today... err.. not really larh... but he makes me happy. Lol, thanks. And plurk karma didnt drop, thats totally fine. Well... thats a coincidence that i'll meet him... and he's the pupil of 6ho-08. Haiz... everything came too abruptly. Lols..... but i believe its fate. I'll tell myself NO to sth i thought of. I didnt want to start it in sec 1 too. I'm considering to leave it aside. But can i control? Hey... maybe not... lols. But i'll try. (:
Well... waiting for mom to say that. But i doubt she'll do it so early. Lols... waiting. WAITING.
And i wonder if SHE's trying to do sth. I'm not gonna be so ***** to HER yet. Though... she'll be *******. Actually i dont need. But thanks. In case. I just need to be by myself and defeat them. Thats all. Thanks to them for being my competitor. Try me! ..... XD

What is the secret to life?

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas

Hey, M3RRY CHR!$TMA$!~
Haha.... went out, celebrating christmas day... thats my bro's favourite occasion. Actually dont feel happy this morning. Mom and dad quarreled. Haiz.... this always happen on christmas. I should have expected already. =.=
End up setting off at 11.30 to bugis. And ate lunch there. High class de food court, you know! Hahas... simply just shop and buy stuffs. I think i agree with bro. I think i like christmas most.. only outside... i dislike being at home. I dont like to hear my mom and dad quarrel. Well... dad just dont believe in christmas. He say he is buddist. So... didnt want to celebrate christmas. All i want to say and can say is....:his concept is LAME. Lols.. =.="
I dont agree with him.. oh.. not only me. My mom and bro also doesnt side him. Muahaha!~ XD
Zzt. Hehe... today i received the most present! Hahas... bought a ink bag and sweater. Woots! ^.^
I have a gift for all of you too!
Here it is:

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( O_O)
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Haha... a SNOWMAN!! Again... wish all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!~

What is the secret to life?

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Sensitive

Lols... i'm really weird. Haiz.... these few days watching movie.. ok... korean drama. They will always mention 女人 this 2 word in every episode. And i really is sensitive to this word. I feel weird after they mentioned it. LOL. Seriously is very lame. But i like the movie.... and of course the song. Sang by :Cha Soo Kyung-I cannot forgive. Sharing with you ehs... ((:
Ah, w/e. Comp's lagging like hell. And i just saw one very funny video. But its romance. Yikes! Omg... i have goosebumps liao. Zzt. Kay, gtg le, bye!

What is the secret to life?

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Money

Oh, hey hey!! Hahas... i feel like its been some time since i blog. Miss my post ba? Oh my, thankyou! Lols.. =.=
Today's as happy as last few days. XD
Smile-feels-high!!! Hahas.... thats my quote/line for today. :D
Woke up at 9.30 this morning. Feel really tired... cos yesterday nite sleep at 5.30. Hahas... hope dont go blind lehs... then after shower, pick a phone call... from my sec sku. Lols... today supposed to report to that sku within 8.30-11. But i am late. =.=
When i picked up the phone... its like... 10.10. Told mom and bro... they still so slow. Like never eat like that. End up setting off at 11. Grr. So late lurhs... i seriously is worried i'll not be able to register. Pooh!~
And i really got amnesia liao. Just went to my sku 1 month ago, now forgot how go liao.. lols.. went to damai instead. Hahas... thats funny. Bro was like.. HUH?! This is your sku?! You SURE bo?!
Lols... i'm not sure, really. :X
Found out i'm all wrong. Haiz... thats bad.. i'm worrying about the time.. and the bus is really against me... took about 15 mins then come. X.X
Went there and 6 students escort us to office. Wow. Hahas.. kinda like them. XD
After registration went to buy books, shoes, clothes. Come to this, i'm really sick and pissed. Its just TOO expensive!! I spent... i mean my mom spent a total of $400 on those! Grr. 想敲诈 worhs? =.="
Haiz... some more so heavy... my hand ache liao.... Zzt.
And went out after that. About half way shopping, i'm with bro liao. He becomes "talkative" le... >.<
Actually wanted to buy some cards.. cos we thought its cheap. $2.50. But we double check... it cannot be so cheap de mah... in the end found out its $8.50. Its really 敲诈 liao. No doubt. Then my bro was like... Forget it.. so ex'.
Zzt..??
Really is expensive. We went on and on, to shops and find presents. Like we so rich like that. =.=
And came to mini toons. I was probably too happy liao. Keep laughing and joking... feel so high. XD
Hehe... then went to some toy shop. "Sing" with a fake microphone. Hahahas... bwahaha!!~
Then we "fight" 2-1 in the hair salon. Lols, cutting hair-->bro. Mom hit bro.... hahas... i give him aother one. Become femaleS-male. :D
Muahahahaha!!!~~~~~
Lols... at least mom bought him a billabong wallet. Omg.. $40. And bought herself a keychain... $6. Oh, you see.... i no have. Sob-sob.. :((
Hahas... i dont mind... actually wanna buy a necklace for bro secretly de... but how? Mom's there with us. Always. Lols... hahas... i'll try to lurh.. bro, wait horh. ^.*
(Ehs... SHHH!! Must keep this secret ehs!)
Lols... am i still posting? I've blogged long enough.. zzt. Probably too many things to share. Today really is funny. :D
Hahas.. and is MONEY-DAY!! [$$$$]
Lols, i'm resting le, bye!

Lastly, theres something i wanted say to zhixin:
失败乃成功之母
&
一次的失败不等于永远的失败
To ZHIXIN: Rmb what you ask me or w/e? You look down on me. So.. i'm returning this to you.

What is the secret to life?

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Pet

Hahas... jamie has a pet... wow. I wonder whats her name. Not regine, of course.. its some kind of shit name. Rubbish. :D
Not posting today... cos i have movie. XD
Byes!~

What is the secret to life?

Monday, December 21, 2009

High

Oh... ok... smsed wrong person. Lols. I thought the person is a female... OMG. And he say he's a male.... Qing Hai. Oh my.... but... haha.... he makes me laugh. Wow. Seriously is happy today. I mean... now. Didnt know a stranger can make me feel so high. Better than the 3 *******. Thats all i know. Now i ONLY have 1 sister and 2 brother.. i think. Hah... i dont wanna have more le. In case have more sisters.. then they become bitches. If have more brothers... omg. Idk how to say.... Zzt. =.="
Yesterday nite sleep at 4.30... cos watch movie. Its just too superb liao. Mom nag me for the whole hour... telling me to sleep. I wanna watch... but still very keen to sleep. I love sleep now. I dont think i have a reason for that. Hahas... today i'm seriously happy. Thinking of the 3 who left... oh my! You dont even know how happy i am. XD
Umm.. i'm deleting my 'ENCLOSURE'. And maybe replace it with something else. Hah... feel so relax. But.... gor..... OMG. Hahas... not telling anything. And.. need to write 10 letters for sheree. I'm "punished" by her le lorhs. Hahas.. but i dont mind. Cos i dote my little and my only sister MOST! Woo-yeh! Kay... ending here liao.... gtg!~

What is the secret to life?

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Late

Holy crap! My mom seriously is.... silly!! I think i can only use this word. =.=
Let me tell you the story.
I woke up at 7am (i slept very well).. but i think its too early so went back to bed. My mom woke up at 7.30. She is also lazy to wake up so early. Then both of us continue sleeping. When my mom wake me up its already 11am. You know, i have piano lesson which starts at 1pm. Kay... this not the problem. My mom told me ytd that today will be going out to buy some things before going for my piano. Hey, please... its already 11am. ELEVEN A.M!! I need 1h to get to my piano teacher's house. So... going out at 12.... now its late to go out buy things. But my mom insisted! Oh my.. i really is PISSED. And the place we going is bedok interchange.. its not very near to my house... and she insisted on going. I didnt want to stop her... cos i know i'll get ambushed if i try to talk out with her. So i rather keep quiet... and press down my fury. In the end we set out at 11.20 to BI (bedok interchange). You see... i left 40 mins to take 1 bus to there, pick the things, and 1 bus come back. Do you think 40 mins is really enuf? Of course NOT. So we're hurrying. We look so idiotic and pathetic, for god sake! And... i'm LATE. I'M LATE! Late by 15 mins fer my piano. And thats totally my mom's fault. =.=
This is the first time in my life to be so late fer my piano. Nvm... i'm now calmed already. Zzt.
Now my MOTHER's story is over... moving on to mine. I'm homed by 6.30. And i "gave" up my comp to my bro. Cos he needed it fer sudden attack. Game. =.=
So i actually started to use comp at 9am... my bro promised. And he kept it. Thats good. ((:
Before that... have dinner... and my dad, mom and i had a prawn-fight. Hahas... thats real fun and funny. And silly. Cos we're "fighting" with food. Real food. My bro sat aside... keeping quiet... and laugh quietly. He seems to be lonely. Oh... sorry then, bro. :D
Now... i mean just now.. until now.. i've been on9ing.. with my lollipop in my mouth. ^.*
I've changed blog skin as you can see... and i prefer this to the previous one, of course. I like this ALOT. XD
Though i think i'll add some more things.
Hey... its getting late. I'm tired already... so... i'll get going then. Byebye!

What is the secret to life?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Planning

Oh, yesterday night slept very well... dreamless(no good fer me, i'll prefer having dreamt). Today i'm pissed. But i'm able to actually keep it down.. keep it with me though. Quiet, alone. Have a very quick bath just now.. dont wanna spend time in the toilet although it smells great(not the toilet bowl, of course. :X). And now i smells good too. XD
Thought through all possible reasons for that. But i'm still unsure. Hey, i'm not gonna actually care about it. Maybe its not avoiding. Just like what she said... and i can put it in my situation. Its that... he still is unfamiliar with me. And not avoiding. Aw man.... this reason can be accepted, i really hope. I dont wanna be avoided. That isnt good, please. But it isnt bad to be like this too. ((:
Although keeping strict boundaries is good.. but its good to always be closer. :D
OH... have been thinking who should i invite to come along with me and julius to catch a movie... maybe sheree is good. I think i'll call her after this. But... what movie will be good? I'm thinking of zombieland though... but julius mentioned avatar, wind & cloud. And i thought of new moon(but for the sake of those who're going with us, maybe i'll let this idea pass). For the sake of those who're going. =.="
This isnt a big problem. I really hope i can actually go with only 1 friend(julius) with mom's permission. =.=
Or maybe its good too.. to go with 2 friends. I thought of nic, sheree..... and nobody else. *sigh* =.=
But nic say,"see first". So... lets see if i'll survive this or really be dead. Brr. This is certainly a short post... eek. Forget it... i'm stopping already. Bye, everyone!

One thing i truly knows was how love gave someone the power to break you...

What is the secret to life?

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Upset

Oh, hey! I blog again. Today just too love blogging. And it's my somekind of "punchingbag". ^.*
I didnt know what exactly i wanna blog about.. just wanna type words that has meanings. Chatted with jamie... cos she's back!!! :D
Feel easy and good talking to her only. Maybe i'm not getting too well with regine or sth like that. =.=
I'm sleepy now... dazed. Right... from the beginning when i felt it, i already know it musnt go that far. But i failed. =.=
Zzt. I'm either upset, pretending to be fine or i'm real fine. What do you think? And bro's psp's music is pissing me off(guess another "punchingbag"). =.=
Maybe the book i borrowed from library make me feel better or... is helping me to control my emotions. Oh, thanks. And so now... what? There's actually nothing to upset about. Cos the true's revealing. ((:
Jamie says "no offend to you". So.. why must i get offended in some way(though, nothing's related to jamie)? Eek... nothing makes sense. Nothing. Oh, i've decided not to go fer the family outing even if jamie invited me. I'm sorry fer that.
Now there's 2 things in my head. First of all, gor's ignoring me, i guess.. oh, nope.. i think. I didnt know why and i didnt want to know if he doesnt want to talk to me. Second... that issue. I'm ashamed by myself. HE knows everything, i supposed(omg!). =.=
But i didnt expect anything.. not even from the start. I didnt expect it to change or remain. I dun care. I think thats all i can say. No doubt. So... its obvious i'd completed my works... so that i'm here. Oh, WELCOME JAMIE BACK 2 SINGAPORE. Jamie, thats all i can do to actually "celebrate" it. I know you dun need it, though. :D
Haiz... guess i'll bathe and get some sleep if i actually can.

What is the secret to life?

New moon

So... i'd survived my peaceful morning just with new moon itself. Now bella is healthy being with jacob. :D
You see, i didnt managed to get the point of what they're talking about in both twilight and new moon in my first reading(rmb, this is the 2nd time?). There are things like.... edward actually mentioned volturi, as well as aro, caius and alec in twilight.. but i didnt noticed that. Thats why i'm confused when they're talking about volturi in new moon. =.=
And the other one is... bella actually met and know sam uley in twilight. Wow. So.. there are really things that i didnt noticed... i'm reading it twice attentive now. ((:
So now you see, i read too much... and i'm feeling a little bit dizzy now. But i really like new moon. Though i think it sucks at first... and i think it's the hardest to read... i mean... it makes me confused and feel lost when i'm actually picturing it. But it has good phrases that i like alot. An example will be this: it will be as if i'd never existed.
Its cool, isnt it?! Said by edward... but its an heartache phrase. )):
Oh, com' on... its just a fantasy... and edward'll be back to bella. There's nothing to heartche about(see, lighthearted again!). :D
You will ask me why i'm here. Oh, practically, i havent started my work yet.. cos its afternoon work. Bro still havent awake. Guess i'll do some of the work first... and let him catch up with me afterwards. ^.*
This probably is my last post today. At night... it'll be difficult. I have works... and shows. XD
Right... (i'd sneaked the whole morning! Mom doesnt know i on9 and everything. Muahaha! :DD)
(but she knows now i'm on9, obviously. =.=)

What is the secret to life?

Early

So.. the sun had risen. And i expected nothing but work. Today i have lots of free time/free slots/free hands... cos woke up at 6.30. So.... i actually didnt get a wink of sleep from 3-6.30. Its pretty obvious i'd only be in my bed fer 2h.... cos bleach and new moon both got stuck in my head yesterday nite. I thought that i wouldnt sleep well last nite..... and its now true. Waking up in the morning... its dark. I cannot switch on the light... cos mommy could have spotted me. I cannot on9 though.... i wanted to. Also cannot read new moon... like i said.. its dark. So... actually wasted 10 mins thinking what i should do so that i'll not wake mommy up.. i thought of making a b'day card fer dad. But my colour papers with bro. And he's now still sleeping. I didnt want to sneak to his room. =.=
Its still dark when i'd decided what i should do. I spent 1h reading new moon.. then now i'm in front of the computer... with no earphones in my ears. Actually idc if mom spotted me... cos its already past 7.30. Although its still too early fer me. Yesterday nite read new moon... edward left. Its so touching that i cried. =.=
Actually i thought of stop reading..... cos i wouldnt read edward's name again fer the next few chapters. =.=
But... at least i have a substitute edward-->JACOB to replace him. ((:
At least i can spell jacob's name... and at least bella has him by her side. So... its better to continue reading than to throw the book aside(like i would).
As fer bleach... its more that i "dreamed" about it. But it isnt interesting to share with you guys. Cos you dun actually watch it, i supposed? I'd already thought of what to blog yesterday nite... but added my own theory today. To make it a meaningful and long post... today have tons of work to do. It would be lesser fer me if dad's at home helping. But he went to work already. And he actually did it very well... nothing crop up.. and i hope not in the future too. So... i sensed the atmosphere without daddy at home..... nvm. I think my life's gonna change too... if it really is... then i hope its a better one. :D
Like i mentioned.. i want to blog.. and only blog. I guess i should actually stop now.... its still best not to be spotted, you see. So... continue your sleep if you're just waking up to read my post(crapping, i supposed) and i'll get back to new moon. =.=

What is the secret to life?

Monday, December 14, 2009

Lighthearted

I just realized that i'll cry if i'm too angry. Thats a silly concept though. =.=
Cos just now mommy make me mad. Brr.
But this comp finally works! Ytd never blog cos cannot post. I doubt the problem is coming from my comp. I think its the network or sth? Now have music le. :D
And i told sheree sth that i shouldnt have told. =.=
Now she's making me hot-headed too. But i'm chilled. Looking forward and not backward. O.O
She kept bombard me with questions. And she doesnt believe in me. But she said she knows everything. I just dun get what she meant. She just signed out like nothing happened... without completing her sentence. I hate that. FINE, i'll let her pass today... only today. I'll get her again another day. =.=
And that damned guy! Grr... he makes sheree suffer. Brr. My silly mei. Haiz... the problem-maker (*****).
Just replied jamie's letter. I wrote lots... but cant find an envelope. =.=
Guess i dun need envelope liao ba... Oh, jamie's coming back today? Or tomorrow?
Thinking what i should do to gor (sure not punch him liao). I've decided to forgive him. Like i'm a forgiver. =.=
I dare him to scold me again. But its good to leave him alone the past few days. So that he can think through thoroughly. And get what i meant. I'm kinda.... lighthearted liao.. thanks to the chinese book i borrowed ytd (isnt it obvious that i went to library ytd? ^.*). It taught me sth and let me think about issues going on around me. How i should handle it... and much much more. I'm sure to read this book carefully. Now already moved on to new moon. I mean.. earlier. ((:
I think i'll never be able to watch new moon liao. Or amybe not. Dk lurh! ...
Now i just wanna plurk and bleach. Eager to see byakuya. Lols... BYES.

Labels: 4th, 5th day without JAMIE♥

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Saturday, December 12, 2009

Blog skin

Woah.. just changed blog skin. Oblivious to the time.. and its now 11.53. O.O
The skin may not be very nice... but just bear with it. =.=
I'll go find... and see more. Zzt.
Omg... how many times did i blog today? If i'm not wrong... its 3 times. Yeah? :D
Maybe tmr i'll try putting in songs and cbox. Brr. No cbox and music player will die de! Grr. Nvm... rely on youtube ba. ^.*
Ok... now i'm resting already. =.=
Goodbye!

What is the secret to life?

Music

You can actually see or know that today is music day. Miley cyrus.... i prefer taylor swift. :D
Dk why, i overslept. By the time i woke up, its already afternoon. There's no chores today. Simply wasting my time in sleeping. And thinking what gor said ytd. You guess what, he scolded me again. I really wanted to punch him if i can. Since i told him my decision.. he became my anti-friend and anti-gor. I warned him before... yet he's still so unreasonable. And say my reason is ridiculous. I see. He doesnt like my explanation AT ALL. But idc. If it can be over earlier, then its best. Maybe because of him, i didnt feel like going to the family outing. Brr. Idk if i should go. Now.. i only need music and not other thing else. I'm trying not to talk to gor. I hate his attitude. Idc if he apologies either.

--Music cures--

What is the secret to life?

Miley Cyrus

Lols.. just found out these songs.. not too bad, i supposed. Though i not very like miley cyrus. =.=
Wonder what song's nice to be posted here......
(Later then blog again. Busy now.)

Labels: 3rd day without JAMIE♥

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Friday, December 11, 2009

Outing

Actually dun wanna post... but still.. i'm quite eager. But.. today will be a VERY short post. Simply thinking about the family outing... which i really dun feel like going. But... i'm giving jamie face, i supposed. Maybe i'll go... most probably.. but depends. And gor never reply me in msn. (bish you lurhs!) =.=
And... iannzen also never. =.=!!
Brr. Short one... byes.

WAIT. Last thing before i go. Need iannzen to be on9. Got a news fer him. Let me check...----Oops! Oh-uh! He's not there. Brr. Fine. I'll find a way though.

Labels: 2nd day without JAMIE♥

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Thursday, December 10, 2009

Fell

Grr.. gor still make me angry... pissed me hell off lurhs! Grr... so what if my reason is ridiculous;absurd;unreasonable to him?! Thats his problem! Brr....
Lucky i'd drank a can of chrysanthemum tea.. its so cooling.. makes me calm.. or else..... NVM. =.=
I'm just waiting fer 20 dec to come quickly. ASAP. He'll cry... think so. Brr.. haiz... suan liao lurhs... at least he's still my gor. =.=!!
Today went cycling with sheree... brr. You know idk how to cycle de... so i learn. Although i fail almost all times. And i fell to the sides... NO.. i even fell off the bike... and hurt myself. =.=
Got bruises on both legs... bleeding.. and very painful... brr.
I still bang the wall countless times. Oops! Sorry... sheree and xinying.... thats their bikes. Oh-uh! 0.0
Actually... i thought of bella and jacob when i bang against the wall. Sheree was like jacob... telling me to "turn! Hui, turn! ...... OMG!".. hahas. Thanks... but i'm stupid.. cannot brake fast enuf.. ^.*
-------Bella... omg... edward's leaving her soon... :(-------
Now.. stomache... maybe play too much le.....
Obviously, the whole afternoon do chores...
Random a little wont kill, kays? :D
Simply thinking why i should *********. It isnt my fault... grr. But regret also no use. Now.. gor should be still angry. But... nvm... idc le lurhs. Like its totally my fault. =.=
And he accepted my reason ytd... today changed? What ridiculous decision?! Its totally hell outta sense! BRR. Now i wanna plurk lerhs... bye.

Labels: 1st day without JAMIE♥Jie misses you.

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Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Cried

Cant believed i cried... just cleaned my tears. I supposed i dun need to spout out the reason.. just couldnt believe i/she ruin my day just like that. =.=
Nvm... more pleasant things will come tmr... i supposed, oops.. i hope. Now.. i think i still dote her as usual though sometimes i cant stand the way she talks to me.. or sth like that. I can see it... today. When i get her sth that she likes. Though its just a so little thing. I know what i'm doing;i know what i'm feeling. Right, i still love;dote her... -cOnFiRmEd-
Now... finally feel calm enuf to start the quarrel again... hahas. Kidding. See, i laugh! Can believe it? I just laugh... or i smirked??...
And everybody ask me why never go bbq... aw, well... you know, PIANO. Understand the word, ya, ya? It is quite boring to just staying at home... but i dun wanna go out too much either. Seems like... nothing's solved, but only 1. Gor's problem. He finally able to accept it. Or should i say it as... he's able to understand what i meant? Or maybe he dun... just accepting. Ok.. w/e. Gor, you know... after 20.. we're not only friends, but still siblings! Okay...? Dun be miserable liao lurhs... its not like what i said is false;wrong. You also agree with me, dun you? And thanks fer your website... its nice... but isnt clear enuf to hear what they're talking about.. its like... they're all mumbling sth unintelligible. But.. thanks... as well as sorry. Oh... hope i rmb what i'm "giving" you on 20. The last one ever... ((:
I'm giving it back... all back. Hah... feel relax enuf to watch my show. Guess i'll just stop here? ^.*

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Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Fun

Wah... superb! Just came back from my aunt's house. Grr... waited fer mr koh fer around 1h beh.. and he didnt know where is seoul garden??? Omygosh... Actually have some pictures to share... but comp got problem. Hahas... got funny faces of iannzen and nic.... den got chao da de food... hahas. real funny. Oh yeah... touched nic's hair again. Woots!~ ((:
I'm really surprised that jared's that good... he seriously like.... omg.. seems like what sheree say is true.. wow. Unbelievable! Hahas... enjoying ourselves in the restaurant.. and make lots of things that's hell out of sense! :D
Fun... its really fun... its been a long time since i had so much fun... i have to admit, yeah? Thank you, mr koh! ^.*
Although i didnt catch a movie which i love too much.. (lols.. and all of them watched?? Serious.. not fair.. grr).. i went to my aunt's house. Everything there is familiar though... i had forgotten which block she lives, what level.. and even.... where. Hahas... i'm like a dumb ass.. =.=
Everything seems to be popping out when i walk along the void deck and else where. The green trees.. how they look like;the cooling breeze;the colour of the road (red);the playground;the vehicles i used to see. And the lift... which you wun possibly forget (dk why);the void deck;steps;almost everything. Inside the lift... the button still hasnt had any light... =.=
Of course.. the door of my aunt's house (green)... haha... and i'll never forget my cousin!! She's only 5 years old... quite active and cute... but petty. Real petty. Xiao Qi Gui... (:
Taught her some of her tuition homework... she dk how do... i explain... den.. "OH!!! I know liao!".. brr.? But she's a little too skinny. Must grow fat ehs, xiao meimei! (but not too fat lurhs!) :P
Hah... ate dinner there and watched some shows. Winxclub, xiang wo ni de shou... brr.. lols.
I supposed i have 2 times of big feast today.. wow. I sure will be bloated up... hahas. I wonder how i'll look. Big;fat;LOLS! No, no... no more imagination.... ^.*
Well... i thought its over.... NO, i thought it should be..... OH, NO! Its MUST be over! Aw man... but the pleasure's still inside me.. when i ***** him. =.=
I'll definitely get over it, yeah?! Woo--! Jiayou, huiling! Lols... giving self-support. =.=??
Sadded... no pictures.. or else i can show you some funny faces and funny things... :D
Ending here, needa help mama wipe table, BYES!

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Sunday, December 06, 2009

Blablabla

Urgh.... having a stomache.. and mommy's screaming.. though she knows i'm with my ear phone. =.=
And plurk... everybody's plurking and responding. Blablabla... lalalala.... hahaha... bwahaha... muahaha.. lols. XD
Today i'm pretty observant.... thats why i'm all-smile... even on bus. Idiot... silly... of me. =.=
Noticed some laughable expressions on people's face... hahas. Real funny. Funny. Well... have to congrats daddy fer having found his work. Wow. Good luck, daddy!! :DD
Luck's on his side today. ((:
And... a good news fer me.. and probably not him. Ending on 20 dec. ^.*
Simply just need some time to be with anti-guys. Need more time to be by myself.. thats a good reason. Its deal! Hah... finally can be freed and be alone! But i wont find it lonely... of course... ((:
AH! So eager to go new sku! And buy the books... and read it... and browse it... then write my name... w/e. XD
Today in real good mood... hope YOU dun ruin it. ^.^
Alright... its my death time... daddy come back le! Argh... :X

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Saturday, December 05, 2009

Crappy

Enjoy the video? Hahas.. its one of my fav. songs. Thought today can meet sheree... but come that thing.. mummy dun allow me go cycle. =.=
Ahs... 3 more days... so excited! Also excited to go sec sku! Omg.. idk why either. Is sku so fascinating? I'm been looking forward to going to new sku. But i dun want to be embarrassed on the first day of sku. And who wants to do the introduction? Eeek.. hate it. Haiz... dk what to blog about. I supposed there's nothing to say. And i'm bearing with it. On 1 jan.... its totally over. But i wish to end it earlier. Cos i want to be freed. Brr. And hope he can take care of her. Wish ya good luck! ^.*
Lucky... daddy didnt nag at me when i on9. So scared of him. Thats why i've been on9ing fer such a short amount of time. Wow... ytd the bleach very nice. And zhi xin's comment is ridiculous! Absurd.. serious! Actually he's my ****... but because of her! Nvm... you dk anything. Today's been hearing people's voices... shouting.. screaming.. all kinds of *sounds*. Of course mostly come from the people at the night market. ((:
Simply bragging. Other than on9ing.. need study. Grr. I'm not gonna let you have the way, daddy! Muahahaa! XD
Argh... still very pissed off by gor. I still rmb what he scold me! Freak you mans... go find another better de lurhs... like i still want you. =.=!!
Sians... dk why keep thinking of estee. I lesbian ba..?? Hahas... she, who makes gor hate strawberry! Woo-yeh! Bwahahaha! :D
Hm... today's so cooling. But i hate the coke i drank... its so fizzy... i hate fizzy drinks, especially cokes. Make me wanna puke. =.=
Ytd nite sleep very late. And slept very well.... no dreams, i guess... but ********* say he dreamt of me on thur. Brrr. I count it as sweet? Or a "nightmare"? Idk. O.o
Yay... finally spam through so much! So ♥ JESSE MCCARTNEY lurhs!
This must be a long-crappy post... yeah?! :D
Ok lurhs... give all of you a break... ending here!~♥

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Video

-Just this video and i'll try to blog tonight.

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Friday, December 04, 2009

Stupid

Hey... grr... chatting with gor and he's so....!! grr... hope he can take care of HER next year... brr. Today's totally drenched in the rain... huge downpour.. hate you, the rain... but its so cooling. ((:
And now the music 'something i already know' makes me feel so emo. And gor add on to it... GRR!! Yet didnt apologise... still say i *******. Am i that kind of person?! Omg... fuming mans! Dk what to post... dun blame me.. go ask my GOR. He's the one who ruin my mood and... make my mind blank.. *sighs*. And now... everybody scold me STUPID. Yes... i am. But i dont want to be! And... wish them great luck. Alrights... i better stop talking about that... later cry again. Ytd nite sleep at 1... and didnt quite asleep... stomach very ache. Haiz... no long post... sians. I think i go plurk le ba... see xin's reponse! ((:

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