Actually seriously wanna say lots of happy things... but after i'd gone to jmi's blog... everything changed. I only remember the things she and her friend say. Xin, yeah, i know you hate me... i know i sucks.... but you dun have to say all that to me! Right, she does have regine beside her... she's not helpless... she's not sad... whatever.... and.. right, she dun need me.... but i dunno why you hate me so much.... i always treat you as a very good friend... but why you must do that to me?! Jamie... you also dun understand me... nvm... i just want to......... NVM, i dun care liao.... now, can i say... xin, regine all siding you?! CAN I?!! Ltr blame me for not understanding you agn..... I HATE!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF IT ALREADY!! I thought today i'll going to be very happy;i thought today i'll not cry. I thought the gap between jamie and i is closed today. But it shows that i'm ALL wrong. What can i do?! What should i do?! At least... regine.. today she's kinda... treat me better, tys. Nobody ever tells me what to do.... how..? To you (jamie), i'm the only person siding jr. Which is sth like.... 1-1. But now... is 2-1. All of them just sides you. Where are my friends? I want them back.... i dun wan this type of days. Cant i just have one day of peace? Just ONE. And sheree.... all of you have changed... nobody's treating me better. All of you say i'm the peacemaker.... den today sheree come crap abt it. What do you want?! TELL ME! I'm not angry because i'm "not" a peacemaker in your eyes. But rather.... you said that yourself! ALL of you said that! And now you tell me NO. You dun believe, i'll show you the letter you write to me with the word PEACEMAKER. What on earth had i done wrong?! Why must ALL of you treat me like this? To all of you, am i just a toy? Or.... a rubbish? You can just play with it and throw it aside when you like?! I seriously hate it..... wanna end this post asap. So that i can stop crying.