Mine.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Sec school

First of all... went around by bus to my choice of sku. Daddy and i went to see bedok green and its so huge! Omg.... the canteen's something like our sku de... but its just big... never went up to see the classrooms... daddy say no need.. grr.... take a look also cannot. X.X
Den went to pasir ris crest which is so far away from bedok int. Its.... 23 stop from bedok int. Its quite huge... but we didnt go in. Cos the main gate is nowhere to be seen. =.=||
We have to make a big 1/2 turn before we see a main gate. Which my daddy hates. Daddy say bedok green better... cos... 1)quite near to my house. 2)can go library after sku. **3)can see ESTEE!! (mine, not daddy's) ((:
Haiz... so tired... everyday went out. Wanna stay at home. But at home have to face those stacks of books. Have to read them... its good... so... in this scenario, ditching ISNT healthy. ^.*
Just now at least can meet sheree... so happy. She wants me to cycle with her at 5.30. But i'm outside... scared couldnt make it in time... so i told her at 6. (anyways... i dun have a bicycle... needa share sheree's). Den mommy waste my time again... (what she do is confidential) [[:
So... end up meeting sheree at 6.20. GRR.... so late. Den... so ps... idk how to ride a 2 wheel de bicycle... sheree have to teach me. End up playing and no teaching. =.=
Play with xinying, marcus, vanessa and sheree.... wow. Marcus's good at "revenging", huh!! Hahas... he's cute... (:
Went back home at around 7. And do everything.... read library de maths book fer 1h. At 9... practise piano.. play too loud... daddy woke up. Lols... sorry. Now... sitting in front of comp. Wondering what i'll do later. Maybe watch bleach. Relax myself a little. Tomorrow needa do house chores. Will be late fer blogging. Actually... i'm always late.... i mean... i always blog at nite... which some of you had already slept. Den you tomorrow read de is today de... lols... everything's got messed up. But i have no choice. From morning to afternoon... its hand+leg that are working. Either do house chores.... or went out. So... nite time.. only my hand and my ears' working.... hand fer typing keys. Ears fer listening music. ((:
Hah.... finally get to rest and relax myself! Woo!! :))

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Sunday, November 29, 2009

Preoccupied

Bad.... feel so dizzy.... gonna faint soon... i supposed its because the lastest headache hadnt recover yet.... or maybe its because i read too many books on bus. Wow. today went to library in bedok... and so preoccupied in books. Like bella. =.=
Borrowed 3 books... on literature, science and maths. Wow. Alright... nothing to blog again. Read twilight till they're gonna play baseball game. Dats probably also my fav. part of twilight. Theres 1 when bella got bullied. Dats my fav. too.... haha.... the waitress's pretty but edward didnt look at her. Pity her. ((:
Today's whole day about books. Went out at 11.15 and read twilight on bus till 12.15. Wow. dats indeed a long trip... 0.0
And came back home.... read twilight again. From 2.45 till 3.30 (on bus). Hm... simply wait fer mommy cos she's bringing me to library. But she's SLOW! We went out at 4.30. And because of her.... i went to library at 7.oo pm! Grr.... find books fer 1/2 h. I know thats somekind of long. But i'm preoccupied (i love this word! ^.*). [[:
At first i couldnt find anything... simply roaming around the library. And always see the same faces. Of course. And its really cold. I put on my sweater and put both of my hands in the pocket of my sweater. Its still freezing.... cos the pocket's cool. Haiz.... gave up on just shivering. Just concentrating on finding my books after wards. Soon... i feel warm enuf... like bella. Not jacob!! He's simply too warm fer me. Better word than HOT, i hope? Hahas... oblivious to the length of my post... and your time... on reading my craps. Really sorry... i am sorry. (:
So... thats all fer today... at least i summarized it too much... or too long. Hehe... but i enjoyed that. ((:
BYES.

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Saturday, November 28, 2009

Edward Cullen

Hah, feel so uncomfortably full. Wanna puke... probably because ate too much fries with seaweed shaker. Ugh... very uneasy sia... almost vomit. Ate one and a half burger... omg... really dun want to get blowed up mans.. =.=
And... i cannot go fer the bbq partay.... cos i've sth on... which i really hated. But nvm... all of ya dat are going, enjoy yourself horh! [[:
Hm... (thinking about what to blog).
Simply does nothing today... only renovate the cardboard... and nearly bleed... cos scratched too many things... hey.... i just said bleed, didnt i? Ahyo... thought of twilight again. Again. Just too obsessed in edward's gorgeous face, beautiful **body (=.=), icy cold hands... hahas... dats funny... and i just spout too much out... hehe... :)
Today woke up so sleepily.. reluctant to hop out of bed... but its very late. And wanna twilight since daddy's gonna go eunos... of course must seized my chance, yeah?! (cannot read in front of him... he'll nag at me). Haha... read over 20 pages within 45 mins or so. I think dat's still very slow... =.=
But at least i read everything carefully. Too carefully. Too engrossed. I read till the kiss-stage of edward and bella liao. Haha.... he said this:"....................there's something i want to try." (:
And he kissed bella with enthusiasm.... hahas... hehe... XD
Really envious bella... not jealous. Wow... didnt know i've quite alot of things to say, huh! Grossh... stomach ache le. Grr... damn the seaweed shaker. "Damn you!" hehe.... (chuckling).. phew... finally can talk to *********. He on9 there. So happy dat i managed to talk and visualize him... so clearly. Too clearly. Okay.... misses him. >.<

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Friday, November 27, 2009

Crapping

Today have nothing to blog about, though, i wanna blog... eagerness overtake me... lets try to blog a long post... try. Woke up at 9am.... and still very tired... cos ytd nite slept very well.... though i dream of twilight!!! Surprisingly ehs... wow.wow.WOW! And edward is real gorgeous!! Omg... couldnt imagine him any further... argh.. XD~~Have a short break: now listening to 'Inconsolable'.
Okae.... back. only dream of edward and bella... which i love it hell lots. (:
Den went to dress up fer piano lesson.... and daddy very unhappy and irritated by me (which i know why... but... 'X'---no telling.) XD
Went back home.... first thing is... read twilight. And i even bring it out! Unbelievable... i so addicted to twilight? Helped out my mom by doing chores... until now. And regine went out again... didnt managed to on9 together. =.=
Now, what to blog about? Wish to crap... but seems like its impossible. Oh... kae... today's second day without *********... very bad... misses him lots. And still thinking which sku i should go... and this month's passing by very quickly... its 27 today. Which is exactly 1 month after HIS b'day. Heww... engine really gonna stop soon... ok... very quick one.... i wanna watch bleach... hope can... hope daddy dun nag at me again. Thank god... maybe everyday... starting from today... there'll be a "title" to every post... :)
Byes.

Misses twilight;misses HIM...

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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Farewell

Lol... a slight headache. Though, i wanted so badly to blog cos have thousands of things to say.. hope i can remember everything... first of all... woke up at 9.30 this morning... dun want to go sku take result... and whole day is pouting... and last nite didnt sleep well... or maybe i can say i didnt even sleep.... =.=
Went to sku den so less ppl.... saw iannzen. :)
And some other 6ho pupils... really miss them... den go talk to ellie... she's nervous... well, dat's so usual... and regine came... jamie's late... lols.. but she's the top 3 psle scorer.... she's kinda surprised too.... feel happy fer her cos she can go to her dream sku and can probably accompany gor. :)
Zai jia duo yi dian you oh, jamie! ((:
Ok... really enuf of results.... but regine... when can you on9? I have lots of things to explain and tell you.... where are you? Nvm, at least you enjoyed yourself.... by watching new moon... omg... which i can never watch it... FINE! If you saw this post, must sms me and tell me when you can on9 horh... and thank you, sheree.... my dear... thanks fer all your letters... i'm totally touched... and i like the part most when you said gor treat you better and ask him if he wanna come my house.... love that part. Thank you.... i'm now fine, not sick le... just a slight headache which can never kill me... cos i still wanna read twilight and continue liking HIM... =.=
Bad, starting to miss gor liao.... really cannot forget him sia... sorry fer what i did earlier... but now its cleared.... i want to see you NOW! You probably on the plane now... SHIT, wanna cry liao... brr... ok, farewell, gor... must take care horh! Come back healthily... miss you. * **** ***
Now, now.... what am i supposed to say? Ok.... regine, tell you abit first. Its perhaps a CRUSH... and now i dun take it so hard... and serious... i still love *********... VERY MUCH. And you know what, i didnt ruin HER. She probably did it HERSELF. I didnt snatch.... cos i take him when they *****. Not when they still like each other, please... dun blame me. Unless you say they ***** cos she wants to let him to me. Which i dun think SHE will do that. =.=
And i didnt kill ********* cos its just a blurred crush. Now's over... i can let him to you! ^.*
Not let maybe... just telling you to TAKE him... cos you like HIM. I'm sure... or else you wouldnt jealous..... as to HER, idk and dun wish to know. So, dun tell me about HERS to HIS. Idc as well, ok? And.... today's not happy.... FAKE a smile to you guys... and now really gtg... byes.

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Twilight

Ok, i'm blogging now though i said no.... because just simply have nothing to do.. and too addicted to twilight liao... and is really tired after renovating bro's room fer about 5h? Nothing much to blog about... but can i have your time fer.... TWILIGHT? Like edward cullen too much liao.... and seriously damn jealous when regine say kristen and robert are dating! Omg... so... before dat... i supposed they're single? Yeah, right... but quite compatible, ya? Hm...... thinking what dream i'll get from twilight.... when edward started to love bella? Maybe... you wouldnt know... today lots of italic (here's one) =.=
And the phrases in twilight... which i cant forget and wouldnt have the chance to forget. :P
I wanted to share with you guys... so just lend me some of your time... before you either go and have your supper or sleep or sth else...
No.1: it was better if we weren't friends
No.2: ditching IS healthy
No.3 (which i can never forget): i'm tired of trying to stay away from you
Ha.... just too love it... :)

Love you, EDWARD CULLEN

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Happy

Today's pretty simple... but just 1 thing extra... later you'll know... and com lagging like hell... woke up this morning and feel much better... and went to re-read twilight at about 10.30... but daddy so annoyed... keep nagging me... tell me to practise my sec 1 maths... and i kept quiet... dun feel like talking... and he went out of my room... feeling so disappointed (sorry...)... kept reading till 12.30.. and ate lunch... not too bad... after dat help mommy do house chores... bro also help... starting very reluctant..... but its better afterwards... ONLY we 3 do.... daddy dun wanna do (bad... very bad.. =.=||)mommy nagging at him.. (serves you right, dad! :P) everything's going well... renovating the kitchen cardboard and we're happy.... (sheree... i'm happy... dun worry about me, ya? ((: )
Today's mommy not free... but she award us.... by going tm to buy real good food fer us... she's pretty good today.... kinda happy as well... (daddy, dun you dare make mommy upset agn!)
It's 4.30..... bro and i were simply too engross in the tv show... and we kinda... left some things undone.. :)
And he went to bathe! (bro, you very unhelpful ehs... jkjk.. >.<) and i bathe at 6.15.... cos i'm being left to clean up everything before mommy comes back (sob, sob).... but i made it in time! Mommy comes back when i'm already done bathing! (but... i bathe fer.... fer... ONE hour!! [[: ) wow.... dat's long, yeah? Nvm, dat's always me... take it dat i'm going to a spa... =.=
Thought i can on9 first before eating dinner.... but too bad... and dinner's great.... today very happy... (smile, smile! XD )
At night practise piano (which is my turn to feel reluctant... lols..) and so now... blogging! :))
Er... cannot blog too long... need BLEACH mah! Haha... >.<
I told you i too happy liaos.... but too bad... he not on9.
Last thing before i go.... (he will either choose HER or HER and not me when he knows that.... i'm sure.... that's why i'm letting go...)

Happy**:D

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Monday, November 23, 2009

Sick

Lol... saw the harmonians.... and i'm sick. Dun wanna do anything, only want to on9.... but daddy dun allow de..... den i promise him after 1/2h, i go sleep.... cos ate medicine liao... using firefox to blog... internet explorer cannot play song.... sot liao.... haiz.... i dun understand why am i still so zai yi abt THAT...? I thought i dun...... but just feel so worked up..... now i even ask him the lame question which i dun need to.. =.=||
Feel so tired sia..... dk whether she got lie to me.... perhaps.... YES. Which i'll be totally hurt then.... dat's her fault.... and she still say i ************* her....?? Totally makes no sense....
----------AHCHOO!------------
Omg, just sneezed... and feel so terrible.... guess i should stop now... gtg and sleep.... byes.

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Sunday, November 22, 2009

Flu

Bad... unlucky day fer me. Today at 11.30 went out with dad.... den the bus we boarded bang into a car. And the car bang into another. Wow.... and its like... wasting time. =.=
Now... down with a flu. So bad flu.... hope no fever ehs... **touch-wood**....
Today gor told me a "good" news.... i'm wondering if its a GOOD news. Dun wanna say more abt it... later he got offended or sth.... what i wanna say ahs? Forgot liao... too engross in the song: 'That's the way i loved you'..... ohs.... today bought lots of nice stuffs.... total buy.... 3 sweaters... wow.... 1 mine, 1 mum's, and 1 maybe grandma's...... and finally dad and mum get back liao..... and i leave everything out already..... not thinking abt gor or HIS things le.... so..... headache to think abt those things.... stop them is the best.... eh, why so short de? I thought it'll be a long post.... cos have lots of things in my head... aiya.... suan le lahs.....
Bye.... quite love the song: 'That's the way i loved you' by TAYLOR SWIFT!!! >.<

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Quick

Now, have to be quick with my post... cos mum oni allow me to on9 fer 1h. And i have to do quite alot of things. Everybody's cold today... dad's cold to everyone........ mum is cold to dad ONI. =.=
Well.... gor mah.... he's cold in his sms. I wanna know what's wrong. Nvm, bro's best! He's not cold at all!! XD
He talks to me fer abt 2h. Since 1pm. Good right? We talk abt anime, his sku students and studies... etc.
Right, i'm abit weird, like what jamie says.... dk why too.... still very miss you guys. But now... should be able to control myself liao... omg!... forgot abt sheree's letter!! **scream scream**....
Oh yeah, ian will help me draw anime characters if i give him some pics! Woo-!! Ty ohs! :D
Ending here.... next i'll be plurking. Everyone, take care worhs...! ((:

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Friday, November 20, 2009

**Iannzen

Wow... saw estee, i guess.... with her friends... sian... still very miss you guys. And just finished writing to sheree.... we'll stop when 26 nov arrives. Now so bored... nth to do... oni can on9. Jamie, gor never on9 today.... think so.... iannzen also. So miss you guys ehs! Although didnt cry. ohmy... today's cold...... rainig agn. And the fan's blowing at me... woosh-woosh~~
Rain..... when can you stop..... i hate you........ but not now. Its was last time. ((:
The feeling...... is special to him. Gor, sorry... i wanted to tell you sth..... but ytd i just cheered you up and if i tell you today, you'll think dat what i said is fake;is a lie. But NO, it isnt a lie. Just dat...... at 6pm, i confirm sth. Sorry.... is all i can say. Maybe it started long ago.... but i couldnt say dat it's really confirmed. I can rmb the day it started.... its sunny.... its the day when he cheered up. Haiya.... but its way too late.... dat's why its no point telling you, gor. 26 nov last day liao.... so what if everybody knows? It'll end.... and he doesnt.......................................

Sians.... bb, i go plurk liao.

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

Crybaby

Crybaby here... just finished plurking... spam, spam worhs!! 18 plurks, i guess... lots right? Miss everybody... everybody's faces just keep popping in my head... especially my siblings... as well as iannzen. Their faces just cant disappear. They always stay etched in my head.... probably 26 nov last day of meeting you guys le. Den... time to say real byebye... wishes dat day will never come. And since when did i become a crybaby?! Waisiang lorhs... anyhow say... =.=
Yeah, i did cry when sheree hugged me. I thought i can control myself, but i couldnt. Den it started agn cos of regine. I was like.... a little ok liao... den she cried when ms chin hugged her. I... i just broke down.... and dk why, i laugh+cry. Weirdo.... Right, have lots of first and last times with you guys... lets.... COUNT them!
LAST time stroke di's hair;LAST time say sth to gor;LAST time see regine cry;LAST time see performances in tkps sku hall;LAST time see teachers cry;LAST time cry in front of jmi and regine;LAST time see gor wear cowboy hat;LAST time shake hands with elly;LAST time see tears in ian's eyes;LAST time see ian's drawing of anime characters (i guess);I DUN WANT MORE LAST TIMES

FIRST time shake hands with waisiang;FIRST time say sth to gor;FIRST time cry in front of jmi and regine;FIRST time see teachers cry;FIRST time see so many ppl cry;FIRST time realise dat the feeling's there fer HIM, but not fer HIM;FIRST time see gor wear cowboy hat;FIRST time wear so beautiful to sku;FIRST time shake hands with elly;FIRST time hug so many ppl;FIRST time see tears in ian's eyes;THERE'S MORE FIRST TIMES;;;

Wow... there' more FIRST than LAST times so far.... by 1. Great.... so... there's always FIRST.

Thankyou, jinrui `
Thankyou, sheree
Thankyou, kolistar
Thankyou, zhi xin
Thankyou, regine
Thankyou, jamie
Thankyou, nicholas
**Thankyou, iannzen

How i wish time can reverse back... now's the time fer me to stop blogging... i've put all my feelings and thoughts into this post.....

I ♥ YOU, HONESTIEES..................<3

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Grad nite

Haiyo... the 'nagada' thingy keep swirling in my head... wew.... 0.0. And... EDWARD CULLEN;ROBERT PATTISON!!! Wow, i saw today's newspaper... and when i saw edward... i was like... "MY EDWARD!!!"... but he kinda old... 23 yrs old ehs.... jacob oni 17 worhs... hyper young. ^.^
Saw bella as well... compare her and dakota, who do you prefer? Lols... idk... seriously.... =.=
And i kinda like Los Angelas.... so cool... Anyway... today's much better... except fer what sheree told me... but really, if WE (sheree, you should know) ever quarrel, i hope you will side dat person rather than me. Dat person needs somehow of support... its ok fer me not to have... because everything's fading... nvm, tmr last day and dats it... so.. i didnt even want to reply you.... because... LETS HAVE NICE MEMORIES TOMORROW!!! [[: (haiz... wanna cry liao.. last day... sheree... do you think when i say "tmr's last day and dats it" to you.... i'm not horrible? Its like... my heart filled with sharp needles.... i just wanna control myself a little more...)
Short post.... again...

SAKURA BIYORI!!! <3 eu mans!!!

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Monday, November 16, 2009

Enough

I'm totally freaked out liao. I just dun wan say... and idk how to put it... haiz... sheree, you say she loves me, but does she? Weh, i'm not a baby... i can sense everything through my heart. Even by actions. I dun believe anymore of this.... one day good, one day bad. Well, i need a break... i'm not a machine... pls. Did i ever say bad things about her to you, sheree? NOPE. But she scolded me... fine! And you got it wrong..... a misunderstanding again... enuf is enuf!! You dun wan gor to hurt, den do you wan me to be? You always been controlled.... yeah, right, you're neutral.... whatever... you've been too matured to settle this thing after you came back from cambodia... too matured and you lost all your senses of whats black and whats white. I dun mind if you only side whoever you want to. I really dc. I can live without them. I wun die....
If i ever hurt gor, leave it as it is! As if i dun have any reasons! As if gor will be the one dat is hurt.... i'll be hurt too... and dats his choice!! I told you dat you dun get it... so, dun misjudge. I hate to malign ppl, as well as hate ppl to malign me for anything! Stop here, alrights?!

FCUK!!
Finally i've shouted it out... today i wanted to... but i resist.. now i'm not going to resist any further! Dun treat me like a rubbish....

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Today

Oh, everything started from 6.15 this morning (Ohayo!! 0.0). My dad thought its deepavali today after he wake me up... i was like... "Oh, seriously?! Really?!" He went to see the calender agn.... no choice... he tell me to ask my friend. Called jamie, but she's in toilet.... den called nic.... nobody pick the fone. Forget it, sms mr a. As getting late, dad tell me to CALL mr a. I a little ps, so... i say suan liao. Half way to the toilet, fone rang...... den hp rang....... know everything liao. Next, nic called back. =.=??
All "dun" talk to me, den all of a sudden, all pop out. Lols... den daddy was like...... "Hurry la, late liao lah!" Eew.... i wonder who make me run here;run there den late de ehs..... =.=
Come to sku... yay! Nobody's there yet, at our class line. Sat down, gaze here and there, read sheree's latest letter AGN. Put it back into my bag, den jamie come liao. Den... den.... assembly... jamie and gine kanna scared by adam. They run away, all the way back of our class line. Forget it, follow them for what? So... i sat down.... mr a come and scold adam.... [muahaha!!! XD]... assembly no fun... but, but, saw sheree!!!! Wah, so happy she come back liaos... and become matured liao. =.=
After recess went to hall and see performances. Our class sucks.... dats all i can comment. Den adilah, farhaini, zhen min thought i emo.... cos i sit down alone.... perhaps i'm emoing? Not sure... and i dc. Emo? So what?! Emo jiu emo lorhs... like anyone will care about me.... -.-
Heard dat no mt lesson, i not happy... cos gor will tell me sth during mt lesson.... and ONLY in mt lesson... but no have. Grr.... so bu shuang.... so he didnt tell lorhs. Haiz.... and he called me this afternoon (Konichiwa!! 0.0), told me about the ian's thing. I was like..... "Finally you're willing to tell me other than in mt lesson!"
He talk so not clear... seriously dk what he mean... blur blur de... but dun wanna persue liao... later he get annoyed. Haiya, take it as.... nothing's related to ian. So, gor went shopping spree too? Wow, xin, jamie and gor... went..... sheree's going soon, yeah? Lols... oni i never. =.=
Grad nite mah........ i not excited at all.... rather dislike it. Now, plurking, so... you mai ca... bb!

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

She/her

Oh my, jamie still post about HER?! Weh... she's (referring to the HER) kinda freaked out ytd.. cos she doesnt trust him le.... and she dk whether she should continue. You know, she can leave without reason, cos both he and SHE have the privilege....
PS, I'M EATING BREAD NOW, MUNCHY-MUNCHY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Back... haiz... she's getting tired of all those liao sia... and he say its related to ian? Ohmygosh... everybody's not getting right, i guess... I wonder what's related to iannzen... makes no real sense... =.=
Guess tomorrow.... she's gonna tell him this:"No lah... ian only talk to me a little... its no relation at all de lah... dun crap!" =.=
Eew.... is she really gonna say that to him? Well, maybe... depends on what he tell her.

READ HERE BEFORE YOU F4 THIS PAGE: all the she/her are referring to the same person... and she's NOT jamie. [[:

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Saturday, November 14, 2009

Troublesome

Haiz... things are troubling me again. Idk whether i can cope with my piano within 1h. But... if learn 1 1/2h, have to pay more... i dun like... but the problem is... can i cope with it? You probably should know... but idk. Now, what? Very bored... and daddy keep nagging me... tell me to practise my maths... haiz.... everything's so troublesome... cannot do my own things.. nvm, i'm on9ing till probably... 5.30. Or maybe... ltr. I just want MUSIC!!!!! ......

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Friday, November 13, 2009

Irritating

Seriously.... hate di for now. What's the diff when he join koli's family.... or join our family? Its kinda related.... cos koli's my mei... haiz.. no diff, rights? Idiotic.... so irritating.... keep bullying jmi like she's not his jie.... like she's what?! Being so disturbing.... dat makes jmi angry.... and he emo-ed. Makes no fweaking sense...... if he knows dat will happened... he shouldnt have done dat. Lols... feel like punching him sia. Qian zou;qian bian;etc..
And... he dun understand his jie... always think she's emoing... dats her mans! My god.... cant possibly believe dat.
Ha, found jmi's blog site again. So.... she's not locking it? Well, now also no secret. Let THEM find what they wana find.... they will eventuallygive up one day.... sians... nth's very fun today... while its hotheaded... lols... x.x

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

Sucker

Sian... nic so freakish... and the harmonian guy... sucker.. fish him larhs.... whatever..
Nothing to say... but just saw ian and elton. Now's 5.30. Haiz.... nothing's funny... but presentation went smoothly.. tmr another one. Buhbye!

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Xiao qi

Sians... today di so xiao qi... xiao qi gui sehs. Accuse jmi somemore... lols... and so rude. But she dotes him... so... kinda... let him "win". Nothing to talk about. Anyways...
Gor (master), bleahxs
Sheree, miss you lots!!
Xin, sorry for your autograph bk.
Regine, thanks.
Jamie, smile & thanks.
Koli, funny ehs...
Di, dare you to bully jamie agns. Xiao qi...

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Monday, November 09, 2009

Trust

Hm... unsure of that. What will it be? Only XXXXXXX? Or.... XXXX?? Maybe he will say NO to me one day. Its suspicious. But i have to trust him... sians... he must be.... whatever... can see from XXXXXX's blog. If were to take the cbox to compare with mine.... i have nth of his. He didnt...... haiz... nvm, i said to trust him.

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Free

Feel like changing blog skin today... but very sians. Saw gor... with some gals and guys... i told him i saw them. And he turned around to figure out. Haha... and he makes me laugh lots. But jamie isnt feeling good. Cannot eat too much panadol, horhs, jmi! Must rest worhs. Take care pls....
Ha, i love today. Although jmi's quite quiet, but.. i'm being myself today. Feel so free.... and relax being with them. Regine and jamie treat me SUPER good worhs.... dats why i still love them. Ah, my life's coming back. 0.0
Hope today's gonna last. Bye liao... done with mr a de things, nows my time!!+++

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

Finally...... the problem's solved. Decision's done. Confirmed. Haiz... no more irritating thing coming, yeah? But i scared..... scared dat i will hurt him. And... he's silly enuf to say he wans to. Geez... thought he will say no. But... he say yes... and stick to his ans. Hm... at least... let me give us a chance ba. I've waited for so long... a credit for me isnt dat bad right? Ok, now... not gonna post long... bb!

Thank you... and sorry....

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Saturday, November 07, 2009

Gone

So sian.... cannot go jamie's blog. Never receive her invitation. Now... nth to blog... and still very hate them. They simply sucks. And... the feeling's gone. Haiz.... when can i decide? Should i say no, or yes? Nvm.... idk what to say as well....

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Friday, November 06, 2009

Nickname

Just when can i stop this? The feeling always comes back and go agn. Today.... it came back.... and den, it went off agn. I cant confirm. And its..... by mon. Hmm..... its getting on my nerve mans! Twice it comes to me;twice it get off from me. Haiz... tiring feeling. But... its better than all those suckers. All of you SUCK. Fish you guys+gals(especially)! Curse you lose! Bleahxs! So what if he still does? Its none of your(all) business. Busybody fellows. And so what if all of you do? Just telling you, he WONT! Lols... peeping;trailing. Only cowards do all these. Suckers too. Yeah, i know... should give all of you a nickname. Suckers... or cowards.... or trailers.... or..... freakers best suits all of you? All of them suits quite nicely, ya?! =.=
Better watch out! I dare all of you to touch her... just her hair... and you'll see........

Posting now;here:11.55pm.
Hm... late loh. Buhbye...

What is the secret to life?

Sucker

XXI la, XXXXXXXXXX!! You all suck to the hell la! Keep want to know, keep trailing... what do all of you want?! Just tell me! But dun keep trailing us! You suck! Idk why are all of you in the XXXXXXXXXXX. Sucker also can get in?! How i wish all of you lose! Only coward cheats. If dare, all of you come and face me! Dun bully jamie, dun bully anybody! DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Thursday, November 05, 2009

Secret

Only to sheree:
Gor said he try to... idk if he will stop. But pls, stop giving me trouble! I had enuf of all these! I didnt promise you anything, gor also nvr. I had already lost the trust for you... i'll nvr dare to tell you anymore secrets from today onwards. NEVER! No matter what, i'll only keep it to myself. I feel... only regine and jamie can keep secrets. I scared of all of you liao... [exclude regine and jmi]. Now, i know why ppl always dun trust you;now i know why ppl wun tell you any of their secrets. Sheree, this IS a secret. Yes, i'm not as private as jmi, but i also dun wan anybody else knows other than us to know. You told jmi and regine... which i didnt tell you to do. Because i've yet to decide;have yet to confirm. Why?! Why do you have to threaten me?! I'm your jie, i even help you to warn gor eh. If he bully you, i'll not be his mei. I sacrifice so much;helped you so much... why did you treat me like this? Dats why i told you everybody had changed.... changed to a person whom i dun recognize anymore. Sheree, if you want to do dat, idc, you do it! End up you're hurting me.... dun say me or gor force you de..... even in the beginning, i'm the victim. If gor bully you, you'll tell.... dat doesnt makes any sense to me! And the secret is abt me..... not anyone else! Argh, cant you just let me off?! I hate! HATE when a person whom i trust betrayed me! U dk the feeling, do you? XXXXX keep saying i hurt XXXXXXX. What crap?! I did hurt her, but she also did! Dats not even fair, you [XXXXX] crappish!!
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To everyone here:
I'm mad.... crazy abt sheree... she just dun understand me. Dun understand how i feel. Lols... stop talking abt her le lah.... makes me feel worst only. Yep, as you know.... 6ho lost... sucks! Regine is planning to play.... i told dan... but dan was like.... "Unless she come and tell me, if not, i still choose sarah." Lols....? I quickly force regine to talk to him.... but she insist on not playing le. Cos dan insulted her... haiz... without regine, we definitely lose. But who cares?! Its just a game.... doesnt even matter. So..... what am i supposed to say? Ohh, bedok view... they didnt even get a gold award seh.... at least damai has.... but damai sibei lan.... agg. score only 215. Bedok view.... 224.... i think i'm fitted to be inside there. Cos i so lan.... [[:
Jamie, thomas and sebas go what.... freakish 'ASK STUPID QUESION' thingy.... I'm with regine of cos. And we did the dance. Haha... ppl keep complaining that sufi always shake his butt. LOL! The teacher was like.... "Dance must shake what!!"
Lols...... so funny... and regine's step kinda fast.... no rhythm. Muahahaha!! I dance with them... but cannot keep up with their steps... so fast.... anyway, regine join the dance le. She's the best dancer (for girls only). Sufi also the best dancer (for boys only). Hey, nassim gonna be sufi's gal partner worhs.... wuahaha! So compatible! :]]
Okays, ending here now, going fb. Mummy and bro going out. Like i will go with them. ^.*
~~bb~~

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Wednesday, November 04, 2009

SHE

She's bad.... even if i'm in wrong... she also cannot scold me all those.... she'd changed... alot.... she's not like my friend anymore.... SHE'S NOT!!!! She's become much worst than i think.... she's no longer the HER whom i knew.....

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Feeling

I'm sick... vomitted. Lols... stomach damn pain.. feel like screaming out. But i dare? Nope, cos in public areas de leh... now, grandmother story... woke up at 6.30.... wah, so late le... wanna be in sku very early.. but cannot liao. By the time i reached there, jmi there le. So sad... want to be the first one sitting there, but too late. X.X
7.15 is the final for him. And i'm not sure if he did it. But i look, and the time is 7.16. Idk if its EXACTLY. But around there... and probably yes. Whatever.... tomorrow trying agn.... must remember. I think its god's decision for that. :D
But i thought the feeling over le... no more liao, but it just come back abruptly.... seriously not sure what to do... he couldnt bear to... but..... haiz... i'm also confused. Now sheree told everyone (jmi, gine). Lols... i didnt tell her to do dat. And gor guai wo.... for telling. But... i was like... WHAT?! You say can tell de, leave it to me to decide de!! Grr.... nvm, but dunno if my option's right. Sheree... can promise dun tell anyone le mah? I dun wan everybody to know sia. At least now... he really stayed further away from me.... dat's absolutely great! Haha.... not yet decide for THAT.... haiz... this is giving me problem. Ok, leave it to god.... TOMORROW.....

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Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Goodluck

Lol... bro so funny... make mummy laugh so much... so "jealous" of him... haha... xin and jmi's thing is over... i guess... and wish myself goodluck for tomorrow... hope can win.. and THAT stop coming for 2h!!! Please mans...

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Monday, November 02, 2009

Jamie

To jamie ONLY:
I'm here, on9ing as you said so. Reading your blog... got NO feeling at all... idk why. But... i'm not looking for gor... [anyway... jr back to my gor liaos. =.=]... cos he got enuf trouble le. I dun wan to irritate him agn. I'm not looking for anyone cos... i dun need help. I just need to calm down and think... do you love me? Ok... NEXT! Abt the xin thing... fine, i can understand... take it dat... i think too much le, alrights? How abt...... sheree thing.... [actually is my thing. =.=]what did you tell her;why did you tell her? I wun emo.... or probably, yes, i did.... but over liao. I've get myself some space already..... ok, sheree think i'm snatching? Hm... i need to think for 1 whole week;tell gor. If confrimed, den i'll tell you sth... if not, NO telling. But... just telling you... i DIDNT ever snatched YOUR things at all... and can you please tell sheree dat? I feel bad too.... when keeping secret from you. Cos i'm afraid when you ask me some question related to the secret.... which i dun wan to reveal... i will be lost. Even when you keep some secrets from me, i dun mind.... cos i know you have your own reasons. Is that NOT called understanding you better?? Right, i may make your wound deeper... or already DID..... but seriously... i NVR thinking of hurting you in 1 single sec....
PS: CHILL IS SENT DOWN IN ME.....~~
Back...... maybe jamie, i did it carelessly.... which maybe i didnt know that i DID. But i saw you.... crying... NO, you CRIED. Or... maybe not, maybe you're very sad..... i saw your lips and nose are red like blood [dun mind me using "things" to describe... kinda bored of english too, ps] ... i know... there's sth wrong... you know, i tried to console you... or make you feel better... but when i saw you so sad.... my limbs or every part of my body just wouldnt move... wouldnt obey. And.. idk how to go close to you. Regine and you have been so good friends and so close to each other since very young... i bet she knows you thousand times better than me.... and she knows exactly how to console you.... the problem for me is... now, we're not so close, so... idk how to do what regine does for you. Whenever i saw your friend doing sth for you.... tears started to fill my eyes... cos i did almost nth for you... and i'd not learn how to. I dun like these days... you and i are so NOT FREAKING happy as we should. Now, abt sheree ah, i'm not talking about her, knowing anything... i just DUN like ppl to say things... and den they denied the fact of what they HAD said. She cried too... but not about our/your/my issue. And it looks like... all girls are crying today.... anyway, ily, jamie.... my sis. I wouldnt want to lose a sis like you..... but idk how to change things. Can i stop the post? This is my second time crying today... i dun wan my parents to see.... ytd, they didnt notice. [lucky]

**now to ellie a little:
ELLIE... tys... i'll do my best... must cheer for me worhs!!
~DONE~
ps: probably i'm in the captain's ball team 1... cos ellie wanna change. My parents... they allow long ago. But i thought... allow also no use le mah... lols.. X.X [buhbye... lastly... jamie, dun cry..]

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All

Actually seriously wanna say lots of happy things... but after i'd gone to jmi's blog... everything changed. I only remember the things she and her friend say. Xin, yeah, i know you hate me... i know i sucks.... but you dun have to say all that to me! Right, she does have regine beside her... she's not helpless... she's not sad... whatever.... and.. right, she dun need me.... but i dunno why you hate me so much.... i always treat you as a very good friend... but why you must do that to me?! Jamie... you also dun understand me... nvm... i just want to......... NVM, i dun care liao.... now, can i say... xin, regine all siding you?! CAN I?!! Ltr blame me for not understanding you agn..... I HATE!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF IT ALREADY!! I thought today i'll going to be very happy;i thought today i'll not cry. I thought the gap between jamie and i is closed today. But it shows that i'm ALL wrong. What can i do?! What should i do?! At least... regine.. today she's kinda... treat me better, tys. Nobody ever tells me what to do.... how..? To you (jamie), i'm the only person siding jr. Which is sth like.... 1-1. But now... is 2-1. All of them just sides you. Where are my friends? I want them back.... i dun wan this type of days. Cant i just have one day of peace? Just ONE. And sheree.... all of you have changed... nobody's treating me better. All of you say i'm the peacemaker.... den today sheree come crap abt it. What do you want?! TELL ME! I'm not angry because i'm "not" a peacemaker in your eyes. But rather.... you said that yourself! ALL of you said that! And now you tell me NO. You dun believe, i'll show you the letter you write to me with the word PEACEMAKER. What on earth had i done wrong?! Why must ALL of you treat me like this? To all of you, am i just a toy? Or.... a rubbish? You can just play with it and throw it aside when you like?! I seriously hate it..... wanna end this post asap. So that i can stop crying.

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Sunday, November 01, 2009

Tears

I've got to calm down..... give me a moment....
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Okays, back... with tears rolling down..... right, i cried.... right, jamie... you dun care. I dunno how to go on.... because firstly...... i didnt blame you, jamie. I was just trying to figure out WHY. I didnt say dat you doesnt have your own reason.... but... i just wanna know the reason why ONLY jr. But also got to tell you.... i SERIOUSLY tried to understand you more..... and better.... but.... i'm not in sku that day... so i wanna know the reason. Reason only.... i didnt blame you.... my sis... and i didnt help him. I dun mind you scolding me... no matter what, its my fault, alright? And i'm not gonna scold you back. I will NOT...........
............. HOW TO CLEAR MY TEARS????!!!!! ............... THEY JUST KEEP ROLLING DOWN!!
Alrights....... jamie, i wanna know why you say "Its not sheree's fault.... Hui ALREADY know long ago". What do you mean? And... what do i ALREADY knows? What is not sheree's fault? Anyways... yes, i'm not a perfect friend for you.... i'm not a good sis at all.... but i want to let you know... i just want the "past" back..... that memory that cannot be erased... i helped you... and i feel so great.... i want that back!! I already know our distance is getting further and further... thats why i just want to treat you better than before.... just to close up our gap. I've been thinking through... am i seriously a so.. hate-able person? Am i so bad for you guys? Am i always being the one who dun understand you guys? If its a YES to all questions.... den... i'm not fit to be you guys' sisters... and i'll quit. Wun go back....... Actually feel like posting the funny part of the day... but... after reading what jamie posted...... everything in my head....... GONE. Only fearfulness... scared that jamie dun wan me to be her sis le... scared she's hurt agn.... and right, I MAKE HER SAD AND HURT HER AGN!!!!!!!!!!!! ALTHOUGH I DUN WAN THAT! CAN YOU TELL ME HOW TO?! HOW AM I GOING TO STOP HURTING HER AND GET BACK TO MY TRACK??!!!
Always feel that i had betrayed her.... thats why everything... i gave them to her... not wanting to snatch... and i got nothing to snatch as well.... i want to "pay" back her! But all i do is just hurting. HURTING!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah... i'm a sucker;a bitch;a ass-hole;a basterd.....
Sorry, jamie... i got nothing to say... speechless.... just wanna apologise..... i know probably its too late to apologise.... but..... what can i do to make you happy agn? Tell me... and i'll do it.... please....
I'm sorry.....

.......Jamie

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