Yes, i do have alot of things to say, but i dunno how to say. It's always miserable. I try to be kiddy & vry active today. Cos i promise jmi i wun be emo, if not she will smash me up into another mash-potato. But i'm sry, i didnt keep the promise, jmi. I dunno what's wrong with me today. I'm totally an insane & totally a freak! After recess was like.... ah gor said sth secretly to jmi. I thought is...... nvm, i'm not going to say it. So i try to delete it from my mind. But i'm trembling all over! My hands are shaking & everything is shaking. Then i feel so uneasy & uncomfortable inside me. I wanna scream out loud!!! I went to the classroom, ignoring everyone, even ah gor,who is behind me and started drinking all my water. And it wrks a little as i was calmer. And i wasnt paying attention to class, but in the end, i did as we were "arguing" over some questions. I feel more alert during maths lesson, which i hope i can forget abt everything. But i didnt. I keep looking at the time. I look restlessly at everyone. Probably i wasnt feeling vry gd cos of this: HE promised to write a letter for me, but he didnt give me when i come to school. I thought he wld give me during recess then. But he didnt agn. And i hope he WILL do it during MT. But he fail to agn.
Fine, i forgive him for not keeping his wrds. And at least... he gave me after HMT. The letter is the saddest letter i've ever got from him. He told me to stop, he told me to accept the fact. I tried to do it thousands of times, but fail. Everytime fail. Whenever i try to forget, XXXXX will pop out from nowhere. Then you tell me how am i going forget abt XXXXXX?? I juz cant! I tried, i did my vry best, i always does, but it cant! You tell me what shld i do??? I wanna shout out loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, i'm still thinking abt it, you see, i cant forget it. XXXXXXXXX told me sth that will kill me. Why is things always being cruel? Jmi say she not emo, but i think she is. She juz put on a gloomy face since.... after MT. Why like that de????!!!!!!!!!! I'm always a failure. Maths also, XXXXXX also. Twice! I'm destinied to be alone. To be lonely....................................
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!