Right, right, jmi finally told me 1 thing that she had been lying to me. Great huh, jmi! She so emo, but keep denying. I'm not sure if i'm really doing sth right to tell jmi abt that. But Bernice support me & she guide me along. At least when i let her know, i feel more relieved. But when i sees into her eyes, it's like.... hurt;sad;lost feeling inside her. Ok, & so i'm affected. Lol??
Jmi say she is "generous", but i dun think so. It seems like she's crying sooner or ltr. Ok..? She has been "acting" & lying to me. I juz found out that my trust to her is fading. How am i going to trust her agn? Since she keep on lying to me. & since the day ah gor be her gor. What kind of ridiculous thing is this?? She was juz trying to pacify Shu Yan & Phoebe's feeling. & how abt me? Seems like... she dun care?! Well, but i know alot today.

JULY;MONDAY;
SHU YAN & PHOEBE;
LIES;
ACT;
[maybe somemore that jmi is keeping from me?]

I dun mind her lying to me as i said before that probably she has her own reasons. Ok, i can understand why she keeps from me abt the Shu Yan & Phoebe thing. But what abt she, crying in front of me, saying that Sheree accussed her for writing THAT sentence, and as well as she, being the XXXX. I dunno what she says is true or not. Is she really the XXXX? So what is she crying abt? Ah gor & i have talk abt this before. No matter what, he juz sides jmi, he juz wan me to forgive her. But he didnt side me, dun understand my feelings and my thoughts. He juz.... wanna hlp jmi. You mean this is call FAIR? Fine, i can dun bring up these things. But i juz wan to know. In jmi & everyone's heart, what am i??


[I'm ok if you say i'm a rubbish in yr heart;cos i know i have nth & i worth nth]