7.30pm posting here....
I'm tired liao... everything didnt go the way it should be. From today onwards, jinrui is not my gor le. I cannot call him gor liao. He disbanned the family. But sheree still wouldnt want to give up... she still want him to be her gor. I'm totally unaware of the reason of letting him disband the family. Cannot emo, cannot disrespect. All i know is that... i'm probably respecting his decision. Why no happy ending? I always believe in it... and this time round, is it going to disappoint me? I dun wan a bad ending in anyway... Jamie just cancel NO so easily... i'm lost... and confused... to whether i should agree or disagree with him. But other than the 2 options, what can i choose? In the end, i still put YES. Nicholas.... he just... perhaps following jamie. Nth to say lorhs... i hope i dun regret.... with the decision made. Jinrui can be my gor, but cant be THEIRS. Why.... why like that? I thought everybody should always remain and wouldnt change.... i'm really tired liaos... feel like ending EVERYTHING. To try not to emo, i fill myself up with project works. Hell god is happening today. Everything goes wrong, not one is right. Today jamie very quiet.... regine... i talk very less to her.... sheree is still ok, but di is VERY happy... speechless liao lorh. Next time.... gotto be careful with what i call jinrui. Cannot call him gor.... but i'm really too used to it. Yeah.... everything had changed.... so, i must change it too. But i only want J-H-S-R-J-N to be in my life;my heart;my head........ is that an overboard request?