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Saturday, October 31, 2009
Surprise
Phew, theory exam finally over liao. Got 3 questions dunno how do seh. And they add up to 6 marks worhs... Scared cannot get Distinction. Den will be killed... =.=
.... a piece of good news and 1 bad de. Say which first? Haha... i like "happy ending", so just say the bad one first.... XXXXXXX and XXXXXXXX break le.... i dun wan that to happen.... but it couldnt be helped.... she say by the end of oct, which is today.... and they break. Can know that he's sad.... he's feeling very bad.... but he also say its no use to be emo.... i'm kinda.... disappointed.... OK, good news, yeah?! Hm.... wondering if i should tell you guys. Maybe not.... because to me.... its.... not a VERY good news, its just a surprising news and i dun think can be told. Just a little, kays? Jr told me.... a little shock... although i thought it will happen 1 day.... but i'm still thinking abt it.... but i realise that whatever things that i've thought through will eventually happen.... lols... actually i seriously dun get who is that person jr referring to... den he say i purposely ask him de.... walao.... i was like.... I PURPOSELY DE?! HELL GOD! AM I THAT KIND OF PERSON?! FEEL LIKE SMACKING HIM!! Lols... but now get it le lah.... and he scold himself a JERK.... haha.... kinda funny! And he've not been on9ing since bernice comes back from hk.... ltr he probably will.... hope i'll stay till then... lols... so sian... only very happy when exam over... cos can on9 for VERY long... somemore daddy not at home worh!!! I can on9 from now to..... 10 pm or so... i guess... and now is... 2.16pm only! Woots! Ltr go watch bleach, fb, sms, listen music.
Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding!!! Rawr!!!!!
What is the secret to life?
Friday, October 30, 2009
Unpleasant
Wah kao... i not in sku den many bad things just happen. Jr cried... because of some bloody hell stuffs. Di.... do it purposely? Gotta ask him.... but i cannot do anything, jr! Its fair.... its not like.... he cheat or sth. You can also do that, but its too late now, isnt it? And... you seriously gonna BREAK?! Whatever.... you and XXXXXX's things are tiring.... but i tried my best to help you liaos... the rest, you must take care le. Jamie.... nvm, just wondering.... why you have to think that its always jr who does sth bad or didnt keep his promise?! I just cant get it... why cant it be me.. or gine.. or sheree... or di, why must it be ONLY jr?! Thats not fair.... i'm not siding anyone... simply just "talking" to all of you. And sheree... dun be angry, kays... i'm not telling not because i dun treat you as my sis. But... its just a secret. So now, you know... and you told jamie.... and so? She blame jr. Suan liao lorh!! Break, break, break.... everything also break... jr's heart break... di's heart break, jamie's heart breaks too...... Wah kao.... it just cant have pleasant things to happen.... lots of blooody hell shit piece!! Seriously damn pissed off sia! So irritating liao... facing ALL of you is annoying too... walao.... world's no peace at all! Dammit!!
What is the secret to life?
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Di
Ytd jr leave, today di leave. What sai?! Like... our family is a game or sth. Say quit jiu quit de lorh. Lols... i say NO to jr le. So... from today onwards, he NOT my gor liao. I didnt feel very upset or what, but rather relieved... i also dunno why. But i feel so bad when di say he wanna leave. Like... sth strike me. But he come back agn to the family. >.<
He give up only on the competition. Jr also. Finally mans! Bingo! Everybody get back to their track le! Wah... thats mean there is a happy ending? Other than the jr thing? Yay, thats cool! Ha, finally all troubles are over. Woots! Actually today very emo. cos jamie like.... ignore me... den i'm always behind her and regine. Which i dun like.... HATE! They exclude me today... nvm, i can forgive them... and jamie forgive di le.... everythings bad at the first half of the day and good at the other half. Unexpected sia.... wah, now can concentrate on theory le. Tomorrow must learn sth from the museum oh! I'm not with you guys....
What is the secret to life?
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Jinrui
Seriously very sian... cannot focus on my theory because of jr. He kinda.... very childish and immature. He wanna join back the family agn. I'm not the one who regretted my decision... its jamie and jr instead. If it were to vote agn, jamie will disagree.... and i'll stay the same decision. Nth's gonna change my mind... another irritating and confusing thing come agn. Jamie.. she allow jr to come back agn, i guess.... i'm the only one left who is still unsure. I dun like him to treat this family as a rubbish! Say leave jiu leave, say join den join... what he take this family for? I'm still in the thinking mode.... should i? Or should i not? I can confirm... if i were to tell sheree about this, she will definitely tell me to let jr in. Wah kao... jr should have thought through it agn before asking us... yet he didnt. I bet he only consider once... or at most thrice-fives. Lols... now cannot concentrate on my theory... do what sai?! And this few days dunno what happened. When i'm too stress or sad... i will always be out of breath and trembling all over. Must breathe very hard and drink lots of water. But i'm sure i dun have asthma and other sickness. Bleahs! =P
I'm thinking.... hope can give jr the ans tomorrow.
What is the secret to life?
Family
7.30pm posting here....
I'm tired liao... everything didnt go the way it should be. From today onwards, jinrui is not my gor le. I cannot call him gor liao. He disbanned the family. But sheree still wouldnt want to give up... she still want him to be her gor. I'm totally unaware of the reason of letting him disband the family. Cannot emo, cannot disrespect. All i know is that... i'm probably respecting his decision. Why no happy ending? I always believe in it... and this time round, is it going to disappoint me? I dun wan a bad ending in anyway... Jamie just cancel NO so easily... i'm lost... and confused... to whether i should agree or disagree with him. But other than the 2 options, what can i choose? In the end, i still put YES. Nicholas.... he just... perhaps following jamie. Nth to say lorhs... i hope i dun regret.... with the decision made. Jinrui can be my gor, but cant be THEIRS. Why.... why like that? I thought everybody should always remain and wouldnt change.... i'm really tired liaos... feel like ending EVERYTHING. To try not to emo, i fill myself up with project works. Hell god is happening today. Everything goes wrong, not one is right. Today jamie very quiet.... regine... i talk very less to her.... sheree is still ok, but di is VERY happy... speechless liao lorh. Next time.... gotto be careful with what i call jinrui. Cannot call him gor.... but i'm really too used to it. Yeah.... everything had changed.... so, i must change it too. But i only want J-H-S-R-J-N to be in my life;my heart;my head........ is that an overboard request?
What is the secret to life?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Siblings
Eh hem! Finished the proposal thingy liao. And its now 10.45pm!! Wah kao... so late liao lorhs. I'm the only one doing the proposal. My group dun even know what's a proposal. I asked jamie... and she gives me some ideas. Sian sia... the proposal i not sure correct mah seh... printer somemore got problem. Needa send the proposal to mr a. If not, actually can send to my group members de.. but now what time liaos? And i dunno their hse no. Haiyo.... my eyes are shutting soon... better be quick with my post. Very tired lohs... ok, gor, HAPPY BIRTHDAY OH!! 15 year old le, must remember worhhs... cannot be childish le. =.=
Whatever... erm... di... i trust you, so den i tell you the secret, if you leak it out... you'll not be forgiven no matter what. And you promise me its a FAIR competition. No cheating horhs.. you cheat... den better try me! I also promise gor sth... which is going to come to me tomorrow. Kinda scary, ya? But i promise him i WUN emo de. So, even if i'm crying or sth, i'll go to the toilet. Dare any of you to follow me! Er... but i wonder what's the thing all abt. Curiosity just kills me!! Lols.. regine, pls help me "protect" jamie. Tys... and, and.... sheree, i'm not jealous of anything... just envious... i'd explained 'em in the letter. And, pls just stop spamming me... i HATE! Looks like you better understand me more... @.@
**Ps, gor & sheree... i will give the strawberry & apple to you when i buy it. Today forgot le...
Kk, last thing before i go, jia you, GOR & DI!! Ganbatte! >.<
What is the secret to life?
Monday, October 26, 2009
Teasing
Now blogging at home. bernice come back from HK le, as well as gine. So, gor cant on9 for the time being, i guess... very sian... now chatting with sheree, and she keep spamming.. which irritates me lots. And she die die also want me to write letter to her.... or else... she'll spam!! Lols... i ask her question and only allow her to say yes or no. Den she crap... 0.0
You already know that gor chat with me le... he didnt block me le......? He cant resist... lols... but actually it was him, who is angry first... and he ask me if i am.... such a... lols-er. But i have the right to be..... as he's kinda.. lame. Just now in comp lab... he keep spam... with min qiang & nic... and he uses my comp! So, indeed, i do nth... just listening to his crap... but today kinda funny... nic & him keep... teasing jmi. Haha... i bet her cheeks now are...... SWOLLEN! Muahahaha Huahahaha! Wuahahaha! And when i was chatting with di... gor go tease sheree.... den she wanna "revenge".... ended up... gor tease me instead. I was like..... HUH, WHAT?! ARGH... OMG..! Lols... den he do sth weirdish... and i almost scream.. haha... sheree also saw de..... he is so "aiyo"... if i were to count how many times it is.... er.... its.... 3 times! AH!! 3 times eh.... what the..! Eeek... next time i must prepare a baseball bat.... to be my defender..... and it sounds like... bella in twilight.... and dun he get near me agn. Right.... have to be carefull tomorrow... cannot get targeted.... or else... my turn for my cheeks to turn red & swollen... [eew.... imagining how i will look like... maybe a.... zombie?]
Hahaha.... oh yeah... gor, can you please expain to steven about that thing? I didnt scold him... and seriously i dun remember what i said... but even if i did, pls help me say sorry... tys.
OH, OH, OH!!! 1 more day before......................... [tomorrow you will know... stay tune if you're curious!] ^.*
What is the secret to life?
Cry
WALAO... now gor so angry abt me, blocking him from my blog. Actually my blocking was unsuccessful. Cannot block anyone. Den he so bad... so angry with me, even block me from his msn. I was like.... bu shuang lorh.. now nobody to talk to, although sheree and nic di is here... [blogging in school >.<]
Feel like crying sia... but i blink back my tears... not fair... i even told sheree the reason liao.. still wanna cry...
What is the secret to life?
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Emo-ing
Lols... today emo liao... find out that myself is so useless... and gor still ci ji wo... DAMN you!! Bored... nic cannot on9, i guess.... only talking to gor... so sian... he emo then so happy... crazy liao... then me leh? Can only be emo... gor still come crap.. make me feel lousier... walao... i wish sku the week after this week then start... den hope everything will be fine... I REALLY HOPE... but i can confirm sth... haha... can only laugh abt it... other than that, what can i do? Feel so bad today... everything's not gonna be great... no mood to do theory... no mood to chat... no mood to do ANYTHING! Ytd nite didnt sleep... only slept for 2h, i guess... dunno why.. feel very uncomfortable on my bed... and so stuffy... keep tossing around... yet today still got the spirit to emo. Its like a joke, ya? ... nth can make me happy... probably... watching bleach can. But... thinking... should i? Hm... world's not good for me... yet everyone around me are so happy... i just cant stop thinking abt 2 things. TWO things.... which can kill me already... Haiya... just hope this year can end very quickly... thats all... i wish for....
What is the secret to life?
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Finally
HELLO! HELLO! HELLO! Phew.. comp ok le. Thanks to my bro. Ha.. so love him sia. He so pro... even gor say so. ((:
Wah... now can blog everyday le. So shuang.. but today i use 'practise piano' to trade for on9ing. Haha... then now chatting with gor. He said so bored.. lols. Yay.. finally got sth to do. >.<
But nth to say... anyway.. 3 more days... buhbye, gotta PLAY!!! Hahas!!
What is the secret to life?
Friday, October 23, 2009
Sot-sot
EEW!!! Computer sot sot liao... cannot sign in msn;cannot go blogger;cannot login to fb. Only can go youtube & some other website. Lols... =.=||
Sians.. now using my bro's comp to blog & chat with gor on msn. He siao siao one too...
Anyway... must blog very long today. Cos the nxt few days cannot even blog. I think not few DAYS, but few WEEKS. Lols... hm... subject pls! Feel so uncomfortable using bro's comp. The keyboard too big le lah! Then the backspace thingy.. so small. Lol.. somemore so noisy.. now daddy looking... ARGH!!! I keep type wrongly seh. Wah kao... now daddy still make mama angry. Eeek... WHY SO SHORT??!! Wanna blog more but cant even think of anything to say... OH! Ytd night talk to gor.. i said something so shocking that he cant sleep till 4am. WOW! I so powerful ah? Didnt know.. psps. Aiyo... nth to blog le. Er.. ok.. sorry for the inconvenience oh... dun mind if i cant sign in to msn. Will miss you guys de... buhbye!! >.<
What is the secret to life?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Funny
Sianz... ytd de post so long.. unexpected... right.. gor must be very happy today, i guess... or maybe not. Cos... jmi didnt say anything abt today. Lols... just grats him. 3rd month... cool.. i didnt know he still remember... looks like he still love XXXXXX alot. Well... jmi.. yeah, you know what i mean by me... leaving XXXXXX alone. Hmm... imagining how depress he will be. Hope this year can faster end.. and no more worry will come to me. Thinking of bearing for another 2 months?? Then... everything will just end. No more sadness;no more worri-ness;no more angry-ness. SIANS-HAIZ.. nth do. Mummy still dun allow me to watch bleach. Not even now... which is 4pm. Lols..?? TEDDYBEAR!!!! I miss you.. but still cant find you... where you go? Walao... makes me in trouble. And havent tell jmi abt that. Lost liao lor.. cant find le.. cham liao.. WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eh... gor weird weird de.. who talking to me on msn?! HE say is gor, steven & his MUM. Wah kao... his MUM???! Its a lie.. bai tuo.. cos ONE of 'em say wanna bathe STINGRAY... lols..?? Its STEVEN! Lol.... make fun of everything. I bet gor celebrating his anni with steven.. =.=||
Steven still using gor's name to talk to me.. making fun of ME! Walao... dunno what's up with 'em! Now all of a sudden stop the conversation. Eew... GOR!!!!!! SHAOJINRUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nvm... they sot-sot le.. but they're funny... =.=
What is the secret to life?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Connected
Eeww.... cannot go sheree's hse agn. Jmi & xin all go, except me.. but not sure if yan got go or not. Cos nvr saw her... when i throw the fabric down to jmi. WOOsh~~~ =.=
Sianz... i dunno whr i put my teddy le.... lost then.. ka-cha!! Die loh.... but must find. Its a MUST! But, but... cleaning my bro's room. I hope i will find it thr... but no have. No have, then go on to my room.. like it will be thr.... cant even see any bear-bear. Going up-down-left-right, but in the end found nothing. Sianz.... i didnt sew it yet actually.. [ps, jmi... i told you the other "story"]..
Cannot find, how sew? Ytd go out, so cannot sew... tired mah... then today wake up at 11pm [i know its late.. i'm lazy, you know]... brush teeth, chat with jmi on msn. She told me sth & she remembered sth & she promise me sth. Lols.... then she left after short time.. then nth do... go find cute teddy cos mummy & daddy still sleeping [lazy too..]
Find here & thr.... nth.. thinking whr i put.... mind blank..... then daze........ searching every single place. Come to bro's room.... help him tidy up.... dunno why also. >.<
Then.... room door open. DIE, mummy wake up liao... cannot sew teddy anymore. Sit down.... listen music, fb.... daddy wake up..... make mama angry. She nag, nag, nag... i cant tolerate.... talk back to her a little. She pissed off.... i dun care, daddy dun care, continue watch tv. I eat alone... daddy come make fun... play play. I'm in serious mode, so dun think its funny. Thinks that he's a fool, daddy walk away.... tune in another channel.... i watch.... nice show.... continue watching till 4pm. Bathe... but on the hot water... then bro come back. Say wanna do "business"... so use mummy's room de toilet. Soup at the kitchen toilet whr i was bathing..... mummy wash hands, help take soup over to bro. Need run here, run thr... and bro on hot water... mine was like a heater... water so hot. Cannot bear with it.... so tell mummy to off the hot water outside..... then... WAHHHH!!!!!!! Cold water started dripping..... lol.... feel so cold. But cool....
So bad.... bro bathe faster than me. I stay in the toilet for more than 1/2h. Mummy nag... say bro already out from the toilet.. i still not yet. Say i so slow. I dun care... continue bathing & singing song. Then out from the toilet.... bro on my bed.... with his itouch. I gotto help mummy take socks to hang.... bro slacking... lols.. And ask him how's today's paper.... he say difficult.. but thats his fav. subject. =.=
Whole day thinking abt PSLE result. If get poor result... get caning. If fail, get hyper-caning. If get great result, then good lor. But like i will.... i always scared that i'll fail.... but friends say must have faith. Hm... no more faith le lah. No matter in... XXXXX or studies....
I thought today can slack long enuf.. but forget that tomorrow got piano lesson... thought of that then vry sian....
Heard from jmi that tomorrow they going yan's hse do the project. Wah kao... i still cannot go. But i only hope that i can find that teddy. If not die le lor... must tell jmi... lol.... i go check first.... baibai!
What is the secret to life?
Monday, October 19, 2009
Heartbroken
He is making my heart break. Break into pieces that cant be fixed back...
Torturing me. And he dun care abt my feelings at all... what else can i say? What else can i do? He's so into it. He dunno anything... but i felt it. Where can he... do that? I CANT HANDLE THAT ALREADY! I CANT TOLERATE THAT TOO!!! Nvm... jmi... 21Oct.. remember anything? Dun you wanna do anything to that day? I'm giving you clue. Its because of this... ok, i'm agitated... cause of him. I'm sry.... dun bother bringing this up agn..
Went pass my XXXXXX, so?? It has nth to do with me le... i dun intend to look out.......
What is the secret to life?
Alone
SIAN......
1st thing:Cannot go mac with jmi, xin & yan
2nd thing:Cannot go jmi's hse
3rd thing:Cannot stitch & cut teddy in front of parents
4th thing:Cannot read breaking dawn
5th thing:Cannot watch bleach
6th thing:Cannot on comp for as long as i want
7th thing:Must practice piano
8th thing:CANNOT DO WHATEVER THING I WISH TO DO
Sianz... actually wanna ask daddy if can go jmi's hse de.. but bro tell me mummy & him quarrel. I was like..... so, cannot go her hse lor?? Plus mummy scold me ytd, how go? So i gave up. Called Sheree, told her to tell jmi cant go. Eh, but... after that mummy & daddy like... so gd, laugh out so loud. And...... i regret for not asking 'em. Now i have to do the stitching alone. I think can do the stitching now. Cos i told mama i doing project. & it IS a project. Then... bleach leh?? Miss you sia... but cannot watch at nite. Haiya... do nth, but blog, fb, slack. But slack also cannot slack too long. Mama will nag. Say.. why nvr learn piano??! Then...... nag, nag, nag... & irritates me. Scared liao, better dun make her angry. She's that kind of.. will nag once she's in fury de. =.=||
Hm.. sry, XXXXX. Trying to force myself out from yr wurl. Dun wanna do that agn. Dun wanna betray jmi agn. That kind of feeling isnt gd, you know. Well, can say it sucks. So, juz leave me alone, will you? There's sth you dunno & you will not know. I dun wan to tell either....
Somemore.. i promise sheree, gine, jmi that i will NVR betray 'em. So.. i really hope i dont. Although i didnt swear, but i hope jmi & all of you know that i mean it. Swearing.... isnt gd. I HATE swearing.. cos i nvr do what i swear. So... its better to promise than swear. Hope you gals can understand, ya? I'm bringing all out today... as well as trying all out. Ah gor, i mean what i said too... dun play play hor. Until school starts. Sry.... to ALL of you-->jmi, gine, sheree, gor.
[actually i got nth to say sry to, oni... jmi & gor].
What is the secret to life?
Friday, October 16, 2009
Cold;freezing
Gosh, he's too rush mans! He's like.... some kind of... ah ya, he today sot-sot de lar. Anyway, watch San Guo Zhi. So cool sia. But i'm freezing to death soon if i dun get out of that room. I dun even know zhang lao shi on how many degree celsius de lor. So cold......! OKOK, i'm sry, Dan. :((
I wanna join yr team for captain's ball, but... my mom will kill me if she found out that i play sports without her consent. I'll be totally killed. My mom said:"If you dare to play sports behind my back, except PE lesson, you'll die. I'll let you see what i'm going to deal with you!"
Wah KAO! Walao... no freedom at all. But, thx julius to agree for replacing me. Or i'll feel guilty towards Dan de. >.<
Well, conference with 3 ppl. But jmi left. Whats up sia? Abit weird de lor. Not oni today, but EVERYDAY. Lols.... =.=||
And she dun agree for IANNZEN to be my gor. @.@[rolling my eyes]. Hm... gotta enlarge the size of IANNZEN's name so that i dun call him IAN cos i'm NOT his mei. Thats what jmi say to ah gor. Say that he cannot call him IAN. Cos she's his sibling, but he's not. LOL! Since i'm not his mei, then.... i'll call him IANNZEN. Can rite??! Asked Iannzen sth... but he say NEVER. He've better taste. Well...?? I'll always remember that de. =.=
What is the secret to life?
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Hurt
before chatting with jamie on msn...
My eyes burn. My eyes hurt. Not because i'm angry;not because my eyes were in fury. But i'm juz sadded... Jamie is so "bad"... ok, seriously not against you from separating THAT. But its juz too unfair for XXXXXXXXX le mah. You said you're always like that, which is not fair to anyone! And today you was acting super strangely. Suddenly ask me THAT question when playing true OR dare. What's in yr mind sia lah? Idk what to do le lar. You make me feel lost. XXXXXXX was so badly hurt by you. & i'm hurt by both of you. & he really wants to know the reason for that. So, i have to explain to him agn & agn. Which sux lots. AND, CAN YOU PLS JUZ STOP MENTIONING ME IN OUR MSN CHAT? IT IRRITATES ME. I'M TALKING ABT YOU & HIM, NOT ME. I'M NOT IN ANYWAY RELATED TO THAT. SO PLS STOP IT, OR I'LL CRY IN FRONT OF YOU. WAN THAT?
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after chatting with jamie on msn...
Jmi, you!! Alamah... now i got NTH at all to say abt you. Juz telling you to chnge yrself a little bit more. Hope you dun ever hurt anyone agn. [like you can..., anyway, juz a reminder]
Pissed off by you 2. Ytd pissed off by regine, today you, him, & sebas. What sai??? You all like pissing me off, isnt it?? Lols.... =.=||
Wah kao... gotta practise piano... AGN. Sat gotto go learn AGN. Sians....
What is the secret to life?
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Pissed off
WoW! Joined twitter. Added gine & waisiang. Er... thats after sku thing. In school, "examination" pass & fail. Ignored ah gor at first, but talk to him cos he got trouble signing in to msn. Which means, gotta hlp him. Lols...? Ended up doing nth but hlping. Ok... i'm not any rescuer, alrite?? Lame la... then i was like... HUH?! Why must i talk to him?!
Well, he seriously dunno what he had done wrong, i guess. But seeing him so lonely makes me feel uneasy. But... talking to him irritates me alot. Feel quite uneasy too leh. Oh yes!! Ah gor jealous abt sth, which makes him wanna punch somebody. Btw, i deleted the pic not becos i'm practically afraid of that GAL who tag me crap. Hm, regine, you sibei.... alamah! You pissed me off from this morning. When jmi & i playing. You was like.... "jiayou, jmi! Hui, let jmi win leh."
Of cos wo bu shuang rite. All the way you said this. Like i wld let her win lor! You not even supportive to me lor. Walao... & i hate seeing you cry sia. Its all becos of you today de lor. Jmi also kanna pissed off by you le. She meant well, but you think its bad idea. Like during recess. I was being pissed off by you to the lvl of 8 le. Then you come crap, say i act pro? Who is being proud sia. Lol.... PISSED me off!!
What is the secret to life?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Jr & Jmi
Wow, ah gor is getting on my nerves till now. Well, he's irritating me, i guess. I'm irritated by him, i guess. ((:
Anyway, staying away from him is the best! At least can stop being irritated. He's "bad" now. His cycle is wrking, i guess. Guess i'm getting hard on him tomorrow and everyday. Hm.. think he deserve it. But like he will care de. He dun even put me in his eyes.. in a sense. But i dun need him to be anyways. Lol... "abandoning" him sounds gd. Muahahaha!!!~
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Nxt, ty fer jmi. Best sis ever mans! Hlp me find SOMETHING that SOMEONE wun know how to do, i guess AGN. But her guarantee failed. But i'll crack the XXXXXXXXX with her, no matter what! & the SOMEONE wun have any opportunity to escape. We wun let too. Muahaha!! Bwahahaha!!! :))
Kk le, gotta pay lots of attention in chatting with jmi on msn this late. Guess she sleep late? But so... late?? Nvm, i also mah...
**Ehh... tell you a secret, probably mr a didnt go to school tomorrow. Maybe oni. But afraid that he will juz abandon us & leave alone.
What is the secret to life?
MAD
OK! Since my blog came a "guest", then i shld give my best service to HER. You know why i say its HER although i dun even know who's she? Becos i have 2 guesses (which is 99.9% for one of 'em) in my head once i saw what SHE tag me. & someone already gave me clue before she came to scold me. I dun care anything. I'm glad that she gave me THAT decision. I dun care abt someone who JEALOUS of ppl. They are juz barely jealous;envious;angry;USELESS. Do eu think i bother abt 'em? Do you think i bother abt HER? Whom i hate to the core? I dun care;bother! Juz scold me as much as possible.--> 'I dont like cheap person'.
Done of posting abt this mad holigan;XXXXXXXXXX.
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Now, i hate HIM today too. HATE! I HATE YOU! No matter what, YOU shldnt have said that. So, i understood sth, YOU didnt apologise sincerely;YOU didnt mean what you said. Well, if YOU dun care, why bother to apologise? I no need any apology. I'm not someone elder than YOU, YOU dun need to be so polite. Serve no purpose at all! Why bother wasting YOUR money on smsing;why bother wasting YOUR effort on being angry & worrying?? I juz cant tolerate THAT. YOU always make sth that "kills" me. Dun feel like talking to YOU tomorrow. Hope YOU really knows the reason.
What is the secret to life?
"Conversation"
Woosh!~
Exams over le! All over le leh! Wah...!
But worrying for 26 Nov. :(
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To:JINRUI
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Nth to say abt you...
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To:SHEREE
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Wait, Sheree, why you wanna know abt that thing?
Does it matter SO much to you? But so sad/bad, i seriously cant tell. Or maybe i dun wanna tell?? :)
Probably juz forget it, er..... i'm still thinking if i will tell you during graduation nite. Since you say lots of ppl expressing their love to their love ones? Haha.... see first oh, didnt promise you! >.<
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To:REGINE
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Well, got alot of things to talk abt you.
You're mad;a holigan;WHATEVER.
Hehe.... THX you fer making me laugh so much today. Lols...? [why shld i thx you anyway?]
Anyway, pls juz control yrself.
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To:JAMIE
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Love you, thats all i wanna say. ^^
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To:NICHOLAS
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You... also nth to say, sowie!
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Ok, finished posting to all my siblings. Now, juz saying that the HMT paper not difficult la, can still overcome with it. (:
Hope i will get distinction to get 3 mks. Hope la...
Hm... i think i shld end here le ba.. gotta do hse chores. Buhbye!!!~
What is the secret to life?
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Busybody
Busybody shit! SHE wanna go with us? Holy crap! Like i will allow. Act also dun need act till like that mah, yu chun sia! Anyway, i'll welcome HER if she wanna COME. But you know... in a sense of welcome, not real de, is some kind of.... XXXXXXXX. (:
Like SHE will ever be with us like that... Nvm de, juz let her see whatever she wanna see. Like.... i like ah gor, i like my di, i like my mei... whatever damn thing she wanna see HERE, juz let her be. Like i care. I'll post more abt i like ah gor, i like my di, i like my mei. Pls come!!! NEW post everyday after PSLE de, welcome, welcome.
PISS OFF BY A BOO-SHIT... SUCKY..
BTW, HAPPIE BELATED B'DAY TO WAISIANG! THX FER YR PIZZA TOO, ITS SCRUMPTIOUS!
What is the secret to life?
Friday, October 09, 2009
Feifei
Oh, well!!! PSLE, i hate you to the core! You sux like hell, you make me so stress! I hate you! Forever & ever. [like it will have nxt time & forever...]
Eew, definitely not talking only abt this only. REGINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ah, you damn! Why like that de;why dun wan listen to me;why;why;why?! Ppl even think you mad hell sia. You wanna Ian more than me, ya?? I mean... you wan to hit Ian rather than me, being yr jie rite? Today i'm not caring you, or else you will think i PITY you or... even think that i'm siding you. WHATever! I'm not siding you today, vice-versa, i'm siding Dan. Okae... i dunno what's wrong but... its like you shldnt do this or else Dan has no fatherhood le larh! Walao.... i have a damn sis & + another silly sis who specifically approve regine to hit THREE boys. Three eh! That's alot, kay. Yea, jamie juz wan her to hit ONLY three boys & not every boys. But..... but its like.... i'm trying to stop regine and yet jmi approve her. What the.....!!
Suan liao... regine jiu shi regine, zai ze me shuo dou mei yong de. I rather talk abt the feifei. She kinda.... sulky-suck hell lot.
[no offence, say too much "rough" wrds le]
Anyway, she suck. Today know quite alot of things. It's quite surprise to know 'em, cos i didnt think that SHE's really that bad. I thought at least she still have a piece of heart, but hers is black..... i see..
Gotta tell jamie everything i know today. I bet today de letter comfirm chao duo de. Hm.. can think of any topic? I dun wan to end like this, cos alot of days nvr blog le. Must be long!!
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Okae, kay..... Nic' is my di le, how i hope Steven is my er gor. But he decline. Suan le.... probably i'm vry useless..?
Well, Sheree ah, sheree, dun you know that it's vry vry vry vry vry hard to convince Ian to be yr gor? I dun even dare to open my mouth to ask him THIS question lo. Haiyo.... but jmi, i know why vry difficult for Ian to allow you to be his mei le. I juz got it today. Dongying say you know le, is that why you so emo ytd? How abt today? Cos of mt paper? You say muz look at the bright sight de mah.... alamah!
Why cant tell me why you emo? By the sentence you told di, i know there's sth wrong le lor. You cant escape from me, but why you wldnt wan to tell me? Remember, no secrets de ma? Unless really really cant say. Eeek, nth to say le lehs...... juz wish all of ya gd luck lio.
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What is the secret to life?
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Thanks
Now i knows who can really makes me happy...
What is the secret to life?
Friday, October 02, 2009
Nicholas
Erhem!! HAPPIE B'DAY, NICHOLO-TEN! Haha.... juz jking. >.<
Yeah, he's happy to recieve his present. (:
What is the secret to life?
Suck
Yes, i do have alot of things to say, but i dunno how to say. It's always miserable. I try to be kiddy & vry active today. Cos i promise jmi i wun be emo, if not she will smash me up into another mash-potato. But i'm sry, i didnt keep the promise, jmi. I dunno what's wrong with me today. I'm totally an insane & totally a freak! After recess was like.... ah gor said sth secretly to jmi. I thought is...... nvm, i'm not going to say it. So i try to delete it from my mind. But i'm trembling all over! My hands are shaking & everything is shaking. Then i feel so uneasy & uncomfortable inside me. I wanna scream out loud!!! I went to the classroom, ignoring everyone, even ah gor,who is behind me and started drinking all my water. And it wrks a little as i was calmer. And i wasnt paying attention to class, but in the end, i did as we were "arguing" over some questions. I feel more alert during maths lesson, which i hope i can forget abt everything. But i didnt. I keep looking at the time. I look restlessly at everyone. Probably i wasnt feeling vry gd cos of this: HE promised to write a letter for me, but he didnt give me when i come to school. I thought he wld give me during recess then. But he didnt agn. And i hope he WILL do it during MT. But he fail to agn.
Fine, i forgive him for not keeping his wrds. And at least... he gave me after HMT. The letter is the saddest letter i've ever got from him. He told me to stop, he told me to accept the fact. I tried to do it thousands of times, but fail. Everytime fail. Whenever i try to forget, XXXXX will pop out from nowhere. Then you tell me how am i going forget abt XXXXXX?? I juz cant! I tried, i did my vry best, i always does, but it cant! You tell me what shld i do??? I wanna shout out loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, i'm still thinking abt it, you see, i cant forget it. XXXXXXXXX told me sth that will kill me. Why is things always being cruel? Jmi say she not emo, but i think she is. She juz put on a gloomy face since.... after MT. Why like that de????!!!!!!!!!! I'm always a failure. Maths also, XXXXXX also. Twice! I'm destinied to be alone. To be lonely....................................
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE TODAY, LIFE SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What is the secret to life?
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Love you/boys
Er???? Is that what jmi & gine do for me & do ON ah gor? Ok, tyty. But.... it's so embarrassing!!!! They force him & it's like..... how am i going to talk to him & face him? Ah...!!! Tomorrow i think i better get him to talk to me first. Hahahahaha!!! >.<
Jking la, i not so bad. Muz have courageous! Ok, i love you, dar-dars:jmi & gine!! Thx for hlping me, but all of us know it's impossible. Why waste yr effort & time?? Well, at least WE tried, didnt we? So, i mean... we gave our best, didnt we? Hahas... so grateful to you. =)
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Ok, nxt topic. I think....... the boys in our class are friendly in their heart, but as hard as metal on their face. Examples:Jingyu, Sebastian, Iannzen, Danial(sometimes only).
Lets talk abt Jingyu first. He is that kind of.... like to "argue" with friends, especially gals de. But he is friendly & kiddy. Hm... then what abt the sebei "aiyo" guy(Sebas)? Ok, he like to "molest" gals that kind... but today i realised that he is warm;friendly;kind. No offence to Mavis. Pls dun mistaken for anything. I juz speak what i think of him. Dun xiang wai oh, thx.
Cos....... today i came to school 10 mins earlier than jmi, so i waited her outside of classroom whr Sebas was playing yoyo. I didnt know he will be so close to me, neither did i know that he will swing his yoyo so hard. It hit me: "thump"
I was like..... "OUCH! Pain eh, ltr got balookoo!"
Then he say:"Sorry... sorry!! Pain ah?"
I was like....... talking in my heart:"Obviously!"
And all along, he was puting his hand on my head. Not really ON my head, but abv my head, maybe he was trying to soothe the pain? Lol....
And so.... bla, bla, bla......... And i can feel the warm of him, as well as the kindness & the way he talks to me today is different. Probably become more friendly? Haha...!
Ok, now Ian rite? He like.... vry gd guy, juz that he dun do hmwk de. Perhaps he dun revise also? But... when i talks to him a little, he's so friendly. Jmi say he vry cute;handsome. Haha...! Right mans, jmi! ^<>^
Hm.... Danial mah? He is mostly mischievous, but sometimes after he tease gine, he apologised with sincere. Real sincere. & at that point of time, he so gd.....
Haiyo.... i repeat myself agn arh, dun mistaken for anything. I juz speak my mind, cos jmi & gine make me feel happy today. Can say they vry funny. Haha....!!!
What is the secret to life?
Lies
Right, right, jmi finally told me 1 thing that she had been lying to me. Great huh, jmi! She so emo, but keep denying. I'm not sure if i'm really doing sth right to tell jmi abt that. But Bernice support me & she guide me along. At least when i let her know, i feel more relieved. But when i sees into her eyes, it's like.... hurt;sad;lost feeling inside her. Ok, & so i'm affected. Lol??
Jmi say she is "generous", but i dun think so. It seems like she's crying sooner or ltr. Ok..? She has been "acting" & lying to me. I juz found out that my trust to her is fading. How am i going to trust her agn? Since she keep on lying to me. & since the day ah gor be her gor. What kind of ridiculous thing is this?? She was juz trying to pacify Shu Yan & Phoebe's feeling. & how abt me? Seems like... she dun care?! Well, but i know alot today.
JULY;MONDAY;
SHU YAN & PHOEBE;
LIES;
ACT;
[maybe somemore that jmi is keeping from me?]
I dun mind her lying to me as i said before that probably she has her own reasons. Ok, i can understand why she keeps from me abt the Shu Yan & Phoebe thing. But what abt she, crying in front of me, saying that Sheree accussed her for writing THAT sentence, and as well as she, being the XXXX. I dunno what she says is true or not. Is she really the XXXX? So what is she crying abt? Ah gor & i have talk abt this before. No matter what, he juz sides jmi, he juz wan me to forgive her. But he didnt side me, dun understand my feelings and my thoughts. He juz.... wanna hlp jmi. You mean this is call FAIR? Fine, i can dun bring up these things. But i juz wan to know. In jmi & everyone's heart, what am i??
[I'm ok if you say i'm a rubbish in yr heart;cos i know i have nth & i worth nth]
What is the secret to life?