Walao... actually today not angry de lor. Ah gor wan to see how i look like when i was angry. I told him this:"Dui bu qi la, wo jin tian bu hui sheng qi de, shei jiao ni yao gen wo jiang ni jin tian xiang nong wo sheng qi ne? Shi you dian ben la. Er qie, wo hui xin ping qi he de. Zen me yang ah??"
He have nth to say then. But what makes me angry is SHEREE!!! She today so bu shuang de. No matter what i do to let her tell me what happened, she juz wldnt! I'm annoyed;irritated;angry. She asked me this:"Can i scream? Can i shout the wrd FCUK?" I GT NTH TO SAY!! WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY?! I juz gt irritated!! I ask myself, is it because of Jared? Or ah gor? She like know what i'm thinking and she told me is abt EVERYONE. I was confused. EVERYONE??? What does she mean by EVERYONE? And who are they? FINE, i stop asking her questions to let her calm down, at the same time, i let myself cool down 1st. But when i go to her, she was writing the wrd FUCK more than 20 times in her diary. You know, i feel like snatching her diary & tear it into thousand pieces. She promised me to let me read her diary after she finished writing one sentence. When she handed it to me, i flipped to the pg she told me to read. And i saw the sentence that strictly hit me:"Jmi & hui seems like having secrets."
I immediately went to find her & feel like scolding & shouting at her. But i ask myself 1st. Do i really have secrets between jmi & i? Do i really have sth tt i'm keeping from her? Well, i really do have sth tt i'm keeping from her. But tts not my secret! Is jmi's!! Fine, i cant push all the blame to jmi. Ok, now what shld i do? What shld i tell her? Hmm.... i think i better tell jmi 1st. & see what jmi plans to do abt it. But Sheree really shldnt blame jmi. Cos i oso gt secret. & i kept from her & jmi. But i explained to jmi tt if i tell her.. everything will oni worsen & ah gor will be hurt!! I'm so in a difficult spot! Who can hlp me?? I'm really keeping me the stress inside me, oni ME!!
How i hate SECRETS! Ah gor too. he told me he hate SECRETS!



AGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!